My Saturday Rant!!! KIMMY THIS RANT IS FOR YOU!!!

Tell me where is my office mate now that I need her! I have walked in to her old office 3 or 4 times to just throw something out... Like " I can't f-ing believe my daughter is a complete idiot" or "what the hell is she thinking?" or (and I am not a touchy feelie kind of gal) but even one of her hugs would make me feel better, as she knows the hell and heart ache I am feeling with actions of my child. CHILD , because she is just that!

I am so disappointed in my daughter, because I thought I had taught her better than to "settle" I never pushed her to go after the Rich guys or the jock guys or the Most handsome guys. Just a guy, was educated, well mannered and likable, who would treat her right, and not try to change her, not use her for sex, money, car, phone. But apparently she feels this is the right decision. Her older sister, and two of her best friends have told me.."trying to be supportive, don't want to piss her off, your not really going to let her marry this bozo are you? To her he is the "UBER GOD" to us and probably to you, he is the "UBER GOOBER"

Kimmy would tell me (the same thing I have told her regarding her eldest!)"you can only get them to a certain point before they start making decisions for themselves. You've taught them well. Any decisions they make now are on them." So why is it that when they start making their own decisions, they completely forget everything taught to them in their younger years! Her oldest is 25 and made some very bad choices...but these decisions didn't start happening until he was in his late teens...What is it about the late teens, that they feel they know everything? I know I was the same way, however, my decisions usually only involved me... Not a small child. And I did realize that I didn't know "shit" as did most of my contemporaries which we can admit now.

Kimmy moved away, her last post was March 13th.. I know your busy my friend, but where the hell are you!!!! I know, new job, new everything, and well I'm being patient however, I don't really have the same rapport with J-(my new office mate) than I have with Kimmy. Now don't get me wrong, I think J is the bomb! however, her baby is only 8! Lucky girl..If I could go back in time, would I have done things different? Kimmy would I have done things different? Her reply would be....somethings yes, somethings no. but you would have never let s for b live in your home for that short period of time... there was a reason his parents kicked him out.! Kimmy your right ... as always!! I have to play this bantering nonsense in my head as I know that's exactly what she would say. then ask me again. what the fuck were you thinking when you did that anyway? who knows Kimmy? She wouldn't stick my nose in it too often probably because she knew I regretted that from day one... Go ahead uber goober, sleep in your truck.!

So Kimmy, I ask a couple of things from you NOW!!! 1) did you find your USB cable? I need that picture of our hunky regional vp... (jeff gordon look a like) 2) I need to know how your job is going ?3) how are the kids? 4) school? 5) Dick and the baby? then some things for you... 1) I still haven't heard from "Robin S" - do you think the letter was ever received??? (one of the many things I will always ponder, I suppose.) 2) I can't email you from work because they always come back undeliverable.. (websense?) perhaps! definately "big Brother" 3) The air conditioner is already on in our office space....burrrrrr.. My heater is still going.. I'm so glad that's not my electric bill to pay!

I miss you like crazy, I can't sit in the fishbowl all day talking to bre and Jen(they're good sounding boards but really young!), the others will be upset. though who give a rats patootie anyway.... luv ya! :-)