Saturday, January 26, 2008


I love you, mom and I hate to see you in pain. Sometimes ur gonna have 2 take the advice you give me. Your a beautiful woman, start doing what you want.

This was the text message Little S sent to me on Thursday! I had a slight emotional moment and basically fell apart. Something I would have preferred she not see, but since she was home and I was home, in a "mood" if you will, she witnessed, first hand, and for the first time how her strong willed, emotionally stable mom "lost her composure."

I've been telling her for 3 years now, that she needs to lose "wonder boy" father of little K and soon to be "baby N"and get on with her life without him since he seems to only want to be a father of convenience.... well, it looks likes she's been listening, but not wanting to follow my advice... hum...this is where, "when are your going to follow your own advice" came into play.

I looked at her for the first time that day as a young confident woman who will be raising her two children by herself, no not an ideal situation however, I have no doubt she'll do just fine! My only question now is can her mom follow her own advice???

Stay tuned!

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Fellow Taurians UNITE!!!

TAURUS- The Enduring One…
Charming but aggressive, Can come off as boring, but they are not. Hard workers. Warm-hearted. Strong, has endurance. Solid beings that are stable and secure in their ways. Not looking for shortcuts. Take pride in their beauty. Patient and reliable. Make great friends and give good advice. Loving and kind. Loves hard passionate. Express themselves emotionally. Prone to ferocious temper-tantrums. Determined. Indulge themselves often. Very generous.

Ok, So I hate when I get these emails; please pass along or you’ll have bad luck for the rest of your life…Gads! I really don’t think I need anymore bad luck in my life!
I am however, sharing with you TAURUS! This description, out of all the descriptions of Taurians is by far the most accurate of me!

I am Strong willed, determined and I do love to indulge myself in my many different quirks; and I love to feel secure in; relationships, future and with myself. (notice how I put myself last in that statement? Not good)

Am I a great friend? Yes, I do believe so! I still have friends, from oh lets see, Pre School! While time may fly and we don’t see each other often, the Internet has become a lifeline between myself and my childhood friends as well as helping me locate some lost friends. (Although sometimes I have to wonder if this was a good thing or a bad thing. Friendships have to work two ways or they just don’t work. Have I set myself up for a broken heart, somedays I feel, yes I have)

Am I prone to ferocious temper-tantrums? ABSO-FRICKEN-LUTELY!!! (I wish, sometimes I could really let those who deserve my "wrath" have it 100% they might reconsider their actions.) I do have a very short Italian fuse, another thing that I am working on in 2008

I am generous to a FAULT. Some might actual call me an idiot! I do like to think I'm,‘warm-hearted, and generous” and these are qualities many people don’t have, without expecting something in return. I don’t but, perhaps maybe I should rethink this one!

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

Help Me!!!! I'm Stuck in the 70's and I Like it!!!!!

Ok, I did it. I have become one of those people who are into the latest gadgets! I bought Satellite Radios as Christmas Gifts, for a lot different reasons; while getting the "connection" I was offered my own personal Satellite Radio...That's it dangle that carrot in front of my face...I took the bait! I received my own radio a few days later, complete with car kit ( OK well while I like the latest gadget... I'm completely inept at the whole instillation process, so it may never make it in my car) SOLD!!!

Two of my favorite Supervisors have Satellite Radios, Don's is in his new car; I got the whole Satellite experience while we were driving to a meeting about an hour away! Jim has one installed in his car as well as a portable unit, like mine, in his office, only difference..He's got a power cord!!!! Maybe the correct word would be "had" He made the mistake of loaning me his power cord...and well, it's still in my possession! (I'll give it back... really I will!!!)

I've sampled many of the stations, thus far, Comedy, News, Dr. Laura Talk, nothing beats channel 7...THE SOUNDS OF THE SEVENTIES!!! OMG!!!! I'm so hooked on that station!!! I have a friend who is hooked on Flight 26...Sounds of Today and the 90's. He'll text me with the song they're playing ... I'll text him back with a sound of the 70's... It's alot of fun! I'm listening to old Eagles, Fleetwood Mac, Paper Lace, Tony DiFranco and the DiFranco Family, The Partridge Family, Ringo Starr, George Harrison, Paul McCartney when they when solo, Abba, The Osmond Brothers and OMG Bobby Sherman!!!!!*when was the last time you heard Bobby Sherman!?*

The best part is that I find myself sitting in my office singing these songs... Yes, these very old songs!(yes, I remember most of the words!) Today, I was in rare performance mode, with my door closed (thankfully to those who know I can't carry a tune!) I'm singing my heart out! Anyone going by my office could see me (or hear me, if you will) singing my little 70's hit! The weird part was I was thinking to myself this morning.... The haven't played "YO YO" by the Osmonds.... 3 hours later..."just like a yo-yo" Donny, the brothers and I were in perfect tune!

Yes, I am stuck in the 70's and yes, I do like it!!!!

Monday, January 07, 2008


When I was younger, I used to work in a grocery store. It was a lot of fun! For the most part I enjoyed it, it was sometime gruelling work, I sometime totally disliked the customers but I loved the vendors, who brought in our breads, soda and beer.. It was like it was a prerequisite to be a adorable in order to get a job! *To those doing the hiring....I applaud you!*
I remember one in particular, he drove for a pastry company...I thought he was the most handsome man ever put on this earth! He was cute, funny and all the things a 20year old girl would drool over! I loved to flirt with him, he flirted back! another endearing quality!!! I absolutely loved(lusted) him. He was the "ideal" man..well 25 years ago, anyway! He had a couple of flaws but I didn't care....Then it happened he got transferred to a different route! How could this be? My days at work suddenly got longer! But I never forgot him...and apparently he didn't forget me either.
Fast forward with me, if you will, 24years... My sister still works at the store and My delivery man was rerouted to the store again. One day, as sis is climbing up the stairs to her office, he tells the receiving clerk, "I know her sister..." That night I received a call from sis asking me "to spill" So I spilled, with her face,I'm sure, contorted to that "disbelief, yet, yep, I'm so glad I didn't know about that, then" look on her face. I told her if you see him tell him I said "hi" well, my sister being my sister, who is very opposite of me, (she would be the introverted one) never did...
Saturday, I had to visit sis at the we are walking out, this delivery guy walks past us.."Hola" he says... hmmmm... my sister looks at me like,DAH and hits me on the arm.."hello, that's him!" I looked at her, I looked at him, I looked at her again, "NOOO" was all I could say...then I followed him back to the check in desk...he turns around and looks at me as though my eyes have bored holes right through him..."Anni?" He said as a huge smile crossed his lips.. (oh those lips!) He was a little grayer than before, after all it has been 25 years or so, but he was still handsome, even without the mustache. We reminisced about our marriages, his divorces and compared kids and grandkids... He's got 2 more kids and 2 more grandkids than I do! It was fun! We caught up with each other and went our separate ways! All in all, it was a great day!!!!!!

Saturday, January 05, 2008

And Now For The Weather!!!

OMG!!! We Central California folk are seriously spoiled by our California weather! Very seldom do we, here, in the Big Valley, experience what we have experienced in the last 48 hours! We are just now seeing an end to our Severe Weather Alerts! Left behind however are the remnants of flooded gutters, fallen trees, downed fences and in general debris strung from one end of the neighborhood to the other.Don't get me wrong we have rain, and winds and stormy weather but for the most part not nearly as severe as have just experienced. WOW!

I sat, watching, in disbelief, the news commentators explain and show visuals just how bad the winds were! How bad were they? They were so bad that they literally knocked over SEMI TRUCKS!!! In my little town, the winds at one point were up 50 mph! Wild huh?

My sister works in a grocery store, she stated that people come into the store in a panic to purchase, firewood, water, batteries, candles, flashlights, and other assorted "storm supplies" to the point that they store was out of supplies! Can you believe that? Total panic mode. Shouldn't this be something one should be prepared for?

Friday my Girls called me around 10am, at work, to let me know our power was out and they were bored,I told them find something to do and let me get back to work. Anyway,I got home and they girls were sitting on the couch listening to little G's ipod! No fighting, no nothing, they looked as if they were actually getting along with one another!!!! Praise the lord! I went out to the garage and grabbed the camping gear, including the propane! Is it silly of me to over buy propane? I think not! My lantern saved the day!!! It was a cozy evening just around 9pm, I glance over at the spouse who was asleep, glanced at Little G who what entranced with her movie on her Ipod.. ( that is a clever little gadget!)and decided I will seize the moment and take a hot steaming bath by candle light... just as my big toe hits the water... the lights come on! Damn! Oh well, a nice relaxing bath, here I come just the same.

My friend, who lives in the Sierra foothills stated he's been without power, since Friday morning...that sucks if your not a survivor, and you have a well that runs all your water issues...*potty especially* or teenage girls!!! hee hee! My girls are grossed out when the toilet gets clogged, imagine not being able to flush for 2 days.! That actually kind of grosses me out as well!

I think we'll all be back to normal very soon...Whatever normal is. Many people around here WILL have to do some damage control. But it could have been much worse and it was in other parts of the valley and parts of California, I'm waiting to see what the levee behind my house does.... *grimacing at the thought of the levee breaking!*

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Your Birthdate: May 10

You don't just believe in love at first site - you've experienced it.
You develop crushes pretty easily, but keeping your interest is another matter!
You are very prone to love - hate relationships.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 2

You are most compatible with people born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, and 28th of the month.


Hello Dear Blogging Friends! Happy New Year to you all!!! Where the hell have I been? What the hell have I been doing? Who the hell have I been doing? Am I all right? Well... In a few short words! Yes, I'm fabulous and I will be Alright very soon!!!!! I suppose I do have some kinks I still need to work out, and serious decisions to make that would be life altering for the family but for's all o.k.

Jennifer and Bre want to know why haven't I been blogging... and well, Darin, you too, probably have's been exactly 3 months today since I last laid my words down... and well, it looks like I'm in need of my "therapy" once again to keep me sane. Maybe I will go into it later... currently, it's killing me.... so if I just let some feelings out... maybe I will feel better.

HAPPY NEW YEARS ! I hate New Years and all the hype that's attached. When I was younger, it was all about the party and date...well, I never had the date and when you didn't have the date, you didn't have the party. I did go to a couple of parties in my younger days, single with friends and decided it was the worst time I ever had; words can't describe how i felt at midnight and kissing....NO ONE. This is a useless holiday. It's a day for all to set these goals and never keep them... to these people. I say...Stick to the plan, because it's usually a goal you've made to better yourself~

My New Years Resolution, for last year it was to become better organized "The Year of the Organized Ann.. and well, I think for the most part I have been successful almost to the point of becoming anal... This was the first year I completed my resolution!!!!

This year my resolution is to become a runner! Yes, folks that means I have to set some goals, I actually set them last year and have successfully carried them out. The rewards have been plentiful! I started my jogging venture last September, I couldn't jog for 2 minutes without becoming winded, dizzy, light headed and feeling like a big fricking loser. To date I have been able to jog 2 miles, non-stop. This is a major accomplishment for me! The first reward... comments...."Have you lost weight?" "wow, you look good!" The second reward...walking into a department store(not a lane Bryant) and walking out with 3 pairs of pants, that fit!!!!! Oh yeah, what a boost of the ego!! My 3rd reward will be when I finish my first Marathon, I will have to follow through with this as I have just written this goal down! I was going to do a half marathon next September with a friend, but as of today, I believe I have been dumped....

New Attitude.
My friend has decided not to call me or text me to wish me a Happy New Years and let me know he's o.k....As much as this hurts...I have to move forward and not rely on him to get me through this training or run with me in September or anything else, I suppose, it hurts like a son of a bitch that I have been dumped even from "friend" status, but I will eventually be o.k. There is a 5K marathon training Mid January, which will last for 9 weeks...I'm there. With or without any one's support, but the support of my running buddies...hopefully I will make some new friends.

This is the year of "it's all about me!" Along with that may come some serious changes! I know it sounds selfish, but it's time to take care of me!!!!! Mentally and physically!!!

Here's to a wonderful 2008!!!! I promise to write more often!!!!! Ann