SHE ARISES WITH A FRESH START AND A NEW ATTITUDE!!!

Hello Dear Blogging Friends! Happy New Year to you all!!! Where the hell have I been? What the hell have I been doing? Who the hell have I been doing? Am I all right? Well... In a few short words! Yes, I'm fabulous and I will be Alright very soon!!!!! I suppose I do have some kinks I still need to work out, and serious decisions to make that would be life altering for the family but for now...it's all o.k.

Jennifer and Bre want to know why haven't I been blogging... and well, Darin, you too, probably have wondered...it's been exactly 3 months today since I last laid my words down... and well, it looks like I'm in need of my "therapy" once again to keep me sane. Maybe I will go into it later... currently, it's killing me.... so if I just let some feelings out... maybe I will feel better.

HAPPY NEW YEARS ! I hate New Years and all the hype that's attached. When I was younger, it was all about the party and date...well, I never had the date and when you didn't have the date, you didn't have the party. I did go to a couple of parties in my younger days, single with friends and decided it was the worst time I ever had; words can't describe how i felt at midnight and kissing....NO ONE. This is a useless holiday. It's a day for all to set these goals and never keep them... to these people. I say...Stick to the plan, because it's usually a goal you've made to better yourself~

My New Years Resolution, for last year it was to become better organized "The Year of the Organized Ann.. and well, I think for the most part I have been successful almost to the point of becoming anal... This was the first year I completed my resolution!!!!

This year my resolution is to become a runner! Yes, folks that means I have to set some goals, I actually set them last year and have successfully carried them out. The rewards have been plentiful! I started my jogging venture last September, I couldn't jog for 2 minutes without becoming winded, dizzy, light headed and feeling like a big fricking loser. To date I have been able to jog 2 miles, non-stop. This is a major accomplishment for me! The first reward... comments...."Have you lost weight?" "wow, you look good!" The second reward...walking into a department store(not a lane Bryant) and walking out with 3 pairs of pants, that fit!!!!! Oh yeah, what a boost of the ego!! My 3rd reward will be when I finish my first Marathon, I will have to follow through with this as I have just written this goal down! I was going to do a half marathon next September with a friend, but as of today, I believe I have been dumped....

New Attitude.
My friend has decided not to call me or text me to wish me a Happy New Years and let me know he's o.k....As much as this hurts...I have to move forward and not rely on him to get me through this training or run with me in September or anything else, I suppose, it hurts like a son of a bitch that I have been dumped even from "friend" status, but I will eventually be o.k. There is a 5K marathon training Mid January, which will last for 9 weeks...I'm there. With or without any one's support, but the support of my running buddies...hopefully I will make some new friends.

This is the year of "it's all about me!" Along with that may come some serious changes! I know it sounds selfish, but it's time to take care of me!!!!! Mentally and physically!!!

Here's to a wonderful 2008!!!! I promise to write more often!!!!! Ann