I'M FEELING A LITTLE SAPPY (OR GUILTY) CHAOS

TO ROB


I GOOGLED YOUR NAME THE OTHER DAY
TO SEE WHAT IT MIGHT SAY
AND UP YOU POPPED PLAIN AS DAY.

I CLICKED ON THE WEBSITE
AND WENT BACK 20 YEARS IN TIME

THAT SAME HANDSOME FACE
THAT BEAUTIFUL SMILE
YOUR BEARD WITH A HINT OF GREY

I OFTEN THINK ABOUT THAT DECISION
I MADE SO MANY YEARS AGO
AND WONDER IF….

IF I HAD SAID YES TO YOU, WOULD WE STILL BE?
I STILL HAVE YOUR PICTURE
DO YOU STILL HAVE THAT ONE OF ME?

IF YOU THINK OF ME ONCE IN AWHILE
AND IF YOU DO
IS IT WITH A SCOWL OR A SMILE?

I’M STILL WITH THE ONE, I CHOSE BACK THEN ,
HE’S A GOOD HUSBAND
AS I KNEW YOU TOO, WOULD’VE BEEN.

I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
THAT WASN'T MY INTENTION
BUT I WAS A STUPID GIRL OF 22?

I HOPE SOMEWHERE IN YOUR MIND
THAT YOU KNOW
OUR HEARTS ARE FOREVER ENTWINED

Sorry about this one... I was feeling very sappy (and inspired) even after all these years after seeing Rob's picture. He was a warm, wonderful person who, despite said "whatever my decision was he would always love me..."

I loved hanging out with him, he was fun and a great friend, and an all around great person!! I have carried this guilt for a long time. and I'm sitting at my desk, eyes welling for the hurt I caused him. So Rob, if your out there... I love you, I'm sorry I hurt you, and you really do have my heart forever.