Again, realizing I am my own worst enemy!

Have you ever done something so off the cuff? Then you think later, (about 10 minutes later) Crap why did I do that? Well, that would be me! I hate that there are days when I have wayyyyy too much time on my hands....what's the phase...Idle hands are the devils workshop? well... Idle mind as well!



Winston Churchill was quoted..." If you're going through hell, KEEP GOING!"



well... There you are... I'm gonna keep going...



Let's reflect, learn, smile, and go on! It's time to blog again!!!



so how's everyone doing? It's been a long while!



Give me some time to clean up all the crap that "spammers" have put on my blog

I saw this bumper sticker... Rock on!!!

HOCKEY MOMS SAY:

PUCK OBAMA!

OK I'LL SAY IT!!! SARAH PALIN IS SHAKING THINGS UP, AND I THINK THAT IT'S A GOOD THING!!!

I never want to talk politics, I just can't! (Most of my friends are Democrats and well, I am a Republican)I will voice my opinion now!!! I've listened to the "oh what the F**K was McCain thinking", "Dude, totally blew it!", "That's stupid...A woman!" "Just proves McCain has lost his fricking mind"...Well people, "Shut the hell up!" I watched the convention, I listened to her speech... and I like what I heard. I heard a cool, confident PERSON tell the Nation what they would do for us, the NATION, if, when elected! She's ready to go up against the "boys in Washington".. My take...Sarah Palin will kick ass and take names later! Forget for one minute she is a woman, a mother of 5, a wife, a soon to be grandmother...and DO NOT start on that grandmother part...YOU WILL LOSE THAT FIGHT!!!Do we ever look at a male candidate and say, "wow a man, a father, a grandfather..etc" Hell no! We sure don't, we look for a qualified candidate. And if we looked at some of the bullshit the Democrats are spewing now, and the fact that some of the most horrid people (radical-liberals, is this a word?)are backing Obama... you might see things my way!

THIS IS MY POLITICAL STATEMENT; HERE IT, IS AND YES, I MADE!

Yes, this time it was me!!!

In an ongoing effort to keep it my blog a little more exciting, I did make these changes to my site! Are you excited? Yeah, me either...., but keep watching who knows maybe, by the stroke of dumb luck, I might get it where I want it to be!

Who was in my blog and why did they mess with my stuff???

I didn't make the changes you see on my blog....????? Gremlins, maybe???????

We interrupt this sleep for....A...Dream?

They say that people dream every night. If that's the case, I usually have no recollection of such dreams, though I have been known to wake up in a cold sweat from a nightmare here or there. For the most part, I don't seem to have such dreams. until now.
Since my surgery, I've been taking Vicodin to manage pain...and I sleep like a baby! I fall into such a deep sleep, I actually seem to be having dreams and remembering them in the morning! Some are very strange, involving some crazy ass people, serial killers and the likes .... others are including my friends, family and situations I've never found myself in before. HUM...
I would seriously love to have someone analyze my dreams of late, because they are so freaking bizarre!

But lets think about the following:
The one thing I'm not dreaming of is WORK!!! Does this mean I love not being at work!!!

For the once I'm not having that dream; you know this one...you come back from Christmas vacation and can't remember the combination to your locker

I am dreaming about hanging out with my friends and while we're are all single in my dreams, we're all the present day age.

I have dreamt about my best friend going back to his abusive relationship...that breaks my heart, mostly because in reality, I know he longs to be at that location, no matter how much he denies it.

I don't know how or why a mass Serial killer came into my dreams, as I harbor no hostility towards anybody, well, so much that I'd want to kill them....


Anyway, I'm liking this Vicodin stuff, and will be sad when I will have no excuse to use it... but until then...I'm getting great sleep, and some entertainment too!

Faces only a Nonni could love!!!!!

GG just turned 3!!!

Baby K loves Nonni's spaghetti!!!
Nonni's "little Man" he's 6 months now!
Nonni's best buddies!

I just had too!!!!

Day 2 On the Road to Recovery!

Ok, I promise I wont start all my postings this way! It just seemed appropriate this time... Day 2 and I'm sick of just all tv! sick of the news, Judge Judy, Montel, Maury, Janice Dickenson's Modeling Agency, (Man, someone needs to let her know... Her plastic surgeon sucks! She used to be so pretty, now she seems like a haggard bitch-who is mean to everyone... If that's the real world..No thanks!) Though, I'm loving REBA reruns! There is something about Barbara Jean that totally cracks me up!

I've come a few conclusions: I) I love my naps! Never being one to nap in the middle of the afternoon, or any other time of day... I think I could like this... the house is clean, I don't need to do laundry, I don't need to do anything 'cept recuperate II) I get to open the mail, a small rush, but hey, I'll take what I can get! III) Catching up on my buddy Vic's blog... Lucky guy, at the tender age of 46, life handed him some lemons and this guy made Lemonade !! He and his wife (Char) are now touring the country in their motor home visiting thier relatives more regularly than most people do, or in some cases want too. He recently told the tales of taking the grandkids with them and what fun they had! Vic I enjoy your tales, keep them coming! IV)I have a new found love for Vicodin, I find they actually help me sleep deep and I dream like dreams every nite! I know.... I only have 1 refill left so I'm not going nuts on them or anything!
I think the most important thing I've learn to do is relish in the quiet that surrounds me during the day that I so desperately need!

Til tomorrow!

Life as I know has just been slowed down... for a bit, anyways!

Hello friends!

I have made countless promises that I would be more diligent in my postings; I guess, as you can see from the date from my last post to today's, I pretty much have blown that promise....
Sure, I can blame a busy life, grand kids, kids, pets, work, work outs, mom and other responsibilities of life, but why, that would be really boring and true. I would really love to say, "it was my cute little Italian cabana boy taking care of my every whim, that has kept me from you" while that would be much more exciting, it would also be very false.

But friends you've got me, probably, almost daily for the next 6-8 weeks... Yup, the disability bug has reared it's ugly head.

Not to go into too much detail, I had surgery last week. I thought that I would bounce right back, but I've come to the realization that I am not a spring chicken. (and, oooouuuuchhhh, that hurts to admit it) The Dr. said I'd be off 6-8 weeks....today I was told it would be the full 8 weeks. I'm thinking, yup, I'm not pushing this envelope at all.

I thought I would just bounce back from this surgery, it's been a week. Yeah, well, I'm sleeping like crap, the pain killers have created havoc with my "system" as well, as my poor system trying to work through the anesthesia, and trying to get comfortable. There is no JUST about anything right now. I'm dealing with my inner demons right now... you know the one, with the halo, that's telling you ..."you can do it, you can just get up out of that bed and cook dinner" and the other one...the one with the pitch fork telling me..." you old broad you can't do anything right now cuz your old!!!!" whatever, I'll let 'THEM" work it out...Me? I think I'll take a nap!

Talk to ya tomorrow!

OK, I Know I'm not a idiot, but Damn, I can't seem to figure this stuff out

I have been now trying for several weeks to make my blog more, well, eye appealing. To date, as you can see, I have failed miserably! Time and energy just don't seem to be on my side these days. Don't give up as I may actually do it and you will be most impressed!!!

But while I'm trying to figure that out... let me ask you a question;
If you could get a glimpse into your future, would that change the way you live your present? Now you kind of know what's been going through my head lately. Do I have an answer? I have absolutely no answer for that question. I do know that we control our own destiny; but why are there so many people out there blaming someone else for life not turning out quite the way they had planned...? And while I certainly used to fall into that pattern, I've decided to pull my head out of my a**, get a grip and make some changes in my life. Can I divulge these intimate details? Of course not, but the road to recovery is a long one and over time, perhaps you'll see the changes in me!

I'm hoping for a miracle and I will make it happen!!!

I Need Your Help!

How do I change my template to something less.... UGLY!??
Advice please!

Dishing on Barbie! Ok I want to be Barbie that Bitch has everything!!

OK, I've told you about my daily experience at the gym, I love the gym! My Co-worker, Vick, and I go every morning Monday-Friday, from 5am to roughly 6am. We look like every other woman in there at that time of the morning. One eye open, no make up, and just generally happy to be functioning in the vertical position. (I usually am totally awake 5 minutes into the elliptical)
Our after workout conversations are usually kudos on a good workout and relief that some skinny, skanky "Barbie" isn't there to annoy us just by being.
Oh were we so very wrong! Along about day 3 it happened. In she walked, Barbie, Bitch, she's about 5ft 8 & has not an ounce of fat on her, Barbie make up was perfect, Barbie Hair ,only to complement the perfect Barbie work out clothes! Oh and should I mention she drives a brand new Barbie Jeep, Bitch!
Normally, I try, to find 1 positive thing, rather than all negative things about people. Nope not gonna happen with this Barbie! She walks in the gym with her perfect little pointed Barbie nose in the air, almost with an air of arrogance. Whatever, I'm having trouble finding something positive about her. Jealous you say??? No, I don't think so, Why you Ask...Give me another 6 months at the gym, 4 More inches of height, and I too, can be Barbie! Now,Where's Ken????

Wow, Me? A Sports Injury?

Since last year, if not longer, I have been on this new regiment of diet and exercise. I was tired of getting clothes in the "tent department" * well, not really that bad *But I did think it was time that I pull my head out of the "I can't lose weight syndrome" and really get serious about it. Funny thing is... IT FREAKIN' WORKS! Diet and Exercise, who knew!
I am now down about 40 pounds and can jog 3 miles,(where before I couldn't even jog for 3 minutes) and go to "spinning" class at the gym and not fall too far behind the rest on that dreaded stationary bike. So far this has come with little or no incidence, until NOW!
I woke up in the middle of the nite, last week with what appeared to be a "Charlie Horse" I'm cool with that, I got up and stretched my right calf, cuz it's always my right calf, and went back to sleep. I didn't think it too strange to wake up with the memory of what I experienced during the night but it was normal and I could forge on. I continued my morning routine at the gym, my calf would become less tight as I moved and stretched it, and tighten up a little after a long day. Still, I thought the worst was over...notice I said THOUGHT?
I was rushing to my car yesterday after work and just as my right foot hit the pavement I felt it... POP! I practically fell to the ground in extreme pain, but I tuffed it out...got in my car and got home as quick as I could...to begin the Ice and Heat treatment..I'm not a fan of the ice treatment... burr but i do love the heating pad! Did it help? a little, did I go to the gym this am ? Absofrickinglutely! Did I do my normal Gym type stuff? Oh HELLL no and I hated every part of it...
I am resting my calf and not running and holding the walking even to a minimum...Damn, I'm perplexed as to what I did wrong to warrent such a situation, I'm not a jock nor do I pretend to be one... but wow! a sports injury...one more thing on my "been there done that list!"

And how was your day?

OK I'll Try This One More Time!!! BITCH,BITCH, BITCH!

Hey All!
I have one question, can anyone answer this for me? WHY THE BLOODY HELL DOES THE WORLD DECIDE WHEN MOM SITS DOWN AT THE DAMN COMPUTER; THAT'S THE TIME TO TALK, ASK QUESTIONS AND IN GENERAL BUG THE LIVING CRAP OUT OF MOM? You know the only reason mom sat down in the first place was because everyone was doing their own thing and in general leaving mom alone!!! GADS!!!
If you notice the dates on my last entry versus the date on my newest entry you will see that approximately 3 months have past!!! 3 MONTHS!!!!
OMG!!! I have no clue who's doing what in my blogging families' lives! I miss my blogging buddies, you've kept me sane believe it or not!
The minute I sit down at the computer : it's like a magnet, BAM! "Hi mom, whatcha doing?"" can you watch the babies for a minute, while I have a life?" "Hon, how was your day?" jeez, which would be great 'cept these conversation start the minute the laptop is opened! Close down the laptop, and it's "oh I guess you were trying to blog,' or "Oh, I guess, I wont bother you, cuz your blogging" "What's good on the email front" 30 minutes people that's all I ask!!!! 30 minutes.!!
All is good right now... one kid is going to sleep, the spouse has just come out of the room one more time...looking annoyed at me.. I'm pretty much used to that; and little S is trying to get the baby to sleep.!!!! Sleep! AW SLEEP!!! Baby K has been out for the last 3 hours!!!! Which is Good!
Something I must do as 430am comes pretty darn quick especially since it's 10:30!!! Any way folks, I'm back and I will try to be a better blogger!!! I do however, need some cooperation!!!!!
Yeah, I know, good luck with that!!!!

Trying to understand the motives of others?

It's a boy!!!!

Well, it's finally happened and Little S has given birth to a healthy baby boy!!! 7pounds 7 oz... 20.5 inches long!!!! We shall call him "Little N" Baby K absolutely adores her new little brother, ok it's only day 4! I'm sure that will change very soon!

Wonderboy (or skippy the sperm donor) is already starting DRAMA~ whatever dude! He came running to the hospital and started crying, like a little girl! "I'm so worried about S, O M G!" *hum, I wonder if you were worried about her when you were "tapping that other girl???" Little S realized that from here on out, it will be her and the babies. In previous months, she's asked wonderboy for Diapers, and various baby essentials and he has never come through, however those nice $150.00 Nikes look really nice on his little feet, as he jumps into his lifted truck! You know about lifted trucks don't you... some people are just trying to overcompensate for their Shortcomings, if you will. the boy is mental and is proving it over and over... a few weeks ago he txt her that he 'took hella pills".... then..."he still really loved her".... then he "took more pills" and this was the kicker! "I think theyre taking effect"...funny how he took "hella pills" and was still texting.... DRAMA! We don't need it!

Little S is doing Great! She's a little stiff , sore and tired, but all in all she's doing great!

pictures soon!!!!

OUT OF THE MOUTHS OF BABES!

I love you, mom and I hate to see you in pain. Sometimes ur gonna have 2 take the advice you give me. Your a beautiful woman, start doing what you want.

This was the text message Little S sent to me on Thursday! I had a slight emotional moment and basically fell apart. Something I would have preferred she not see, but since she was home and I was home, in a "mood" if you will, she witnessed, first hand, and for the first time how her strong willed, emotionally stable mom "lost her composure."

I've been telling her for 3 years now, that she needs to lose "wonder boy" father of little K and soon to be "baby N"and get on with her life without him since he seems to only want to be a father of convenience.... well, it looks likes she's been listening, but not wanting to follow my advice... hum...this is where, "when are your going to follow your own advice" came into play.

I looked at her for the first time that day as a young confident woman who will be raising her two children by herself, no not an ideal situation however, I have no doubt she'll do just fine! My only question now is can her mom follow her own advice???

Stay tuned!

Fellow Taurians UNITE!!!

TAURUS- The Enduring One…
Charming but aggressive, Can come off as boring, but they are not. Hard workers. Warm-hearted. Strong, has endurance. Solid beings that are stable and secure in their ways. Not looking for shortcuts. Take pride in their beauty. Patient and reliable. Make great friends and give good advice. Loving and kind. Loves hard passionate. Express themselves emotionally. Prone to ferocious temper-tantrums. Determined. Indulge themselves often. Very generous.

Ok, So I hate when I get these emails; please pass along or you’ll have bad luck for the rest of your life…Gads! I really don’t think I need anymore bad luck in my life!
I am however, sharing with you TAURUS! This description, out of all the descriptions of Taurians is by far the most accurate of me!

I am Strong willed, determined and I do love to indulge myself in my many different quirks; and I love to feel secure in; relationships, future and with myself. (notice how I put myself last in that statement? Not good)

Am I a great friend? Yes, I do believe so! I still have friends, from oh lets see, Pre School! While time may fly and we don’t see each other often, the Internet has become a lifeline between myself and my childhood friends as well as helping me locate some lost friends. (Although sometimes I have to wonder if this was a good thing or a bad thing. Friendships have to work two ways or they just don’t work. Have I set myself up for a broken heart, somedays I feel, yes I have)

Am I prone to ferocious temper-tantrums? ABSO-FRICKEN-LUTELY!!! (I wish, sometimes I could really let those who deserve my "wrath" have it 100% they might reconsider their actions.) I do have a very short Italian fuse, another thing that I am working on in 2008

I am generous to a FAULT. Some might actual call me an idiot! I do like to think I'm,‘warm-hearted, and generous” and these are qualities many people don’t have, without expecting something in return. I don’t but, perhaps maybe I should rethink this one!

Help Me!!!! I'm Stuck in the 70's and I Like it!!!!!

Ok, I did it. I have become one of those people who are into the latest gadgets! I bought Satellite Radios as Christmas Gifts, for a lot different reasons; while getting the "connection" I was offered my own personal Satellite Radio...That's it dangle that carrot in front of my face...I took the bait! I received my own radio a few days later, complete with car kit ( OK well while I like the latest gadget... I'm completely inept at the whole instillation process, so it may never make it in my car) SOLD!!!

Two of my favorite Supervisors have Satellite Radios, Don's is in his new car; I got the whole Satellite experience while we were driving to a meeting about an hour away! Jim has one installed in his car as well as a portable unit, like mine, in his office, only difference..He's got a power cord!!!! Maybe the correct word would be "had" He made the mistake of loaning me his power cord...and well, it's still in my possession! (I'll give it back... really I will!!!)

I've sampled many of the stations, thus far, Comedy, News, Dr. Laura Talk, nothing beats channel 7...THE SOUNDS OF THE SEVENTIES!!! OMG!!!! I'm so hooked on that station!!! I have a friend who is hooked on Flight 26...Sounds of Today and the 90's. He'll text me with the song they're playing ... I'll text him back with a sound of the 70's... It's alot of fun! I'm listening to old Eagles, Fleetwood Mac, Paper Lace, Tony DiFranco and the DiFranco Family, The Partridge Family, Ringo Starr, George Harrison, Paul McCartney when they when solo, Abba, The Osmond Brothers and OMG Bobby Sherman!!!!!*when was the last time you heard Bobby Sherman!?*

The best part is that I find myself sitting in my office singing these songs... Yes, these very old songs!(yes, I remember most of the words!) Today, I was in rare performance mode, with my door closed (thankfully to those who know I can't carry a tune!) I'm singing my heart out! Anyone going by my office could see me (or hear me, if you will) singing my little 70's hit! The weird part was I was thinking to myself this morning.... The haven't played "YO YO" by the Osmonds.... 3 hours later..."just like a yo-yo" Donny, the brothers and I were in perfect tune!

Yes, I am stuck in the 70's and yes, I do like it!!!!