This Chaos I like to Call My Life

Again, realizing I am my own worst enemy!

2010-11-18T14:41:00.000-08:00

Have you ever done something so off the cuff? Then you think later, (about 10 minutes later) Crap why did I do that? Well, that would be me! I hate that there are days when I have wayyyyy too much time on my hands....what's the phase...Idle hands are the devils workshop? well... Idle mind as well!

Winston Churchill was quoted..." If you're going through hell, KEEP GOING!"

well... There you are... I'm gonna keep going...

Let's reflect, learn, smile, and go on! It's time to blog again!!!

so how's everyone doing? It's been a long while!

Give me some time to clean up all the crap that "spammers" have put on my blog

I saw this bumper sticker... Rock on!!!

2008-09-07T21:19:00.000-07:00

HOCKEY MOMS SAY:

PUCK OBAMA!

OK I'LL SAY IT!!! SARAH PALIN IS SHAKING THINGS UP, AND I THINK THAT IT'S A GOOD THING!!!

2008-09-04T16:38:00.000-07:00

I never want to talk politics, I just can't! (Most of my friends are Democrats and well, I am a Republican)I will voice my opinion now!!! I've listened to the "oh what the F**K was McCain thinking", "Dude, totally blew it!", "That's stupid...A woman!" "Just proves McCain has lost his fricking mind"...Well people, "Shut the hell up!" I watched the convention, I listened to her speech... and I like what I heard. I heard a cool, confident PERSON tell the Nation what they would do for us, the NATION, if, when elected! She's ready to go up against the "boys in Washington".. My take...Sarah Palin will kick ass and take names later! Forget for one minute she is a woman, a mother of 5, a wife, a soon to be grandmother...and DO NOT start on that grandmother part...YOU WILL LOSE THAT FIGHT!!!Do we ever look at a male candidate and say, "wow a man, a father, a grandfather..etc" Hell no! We sure don't, we look for a qualified candidate. And if we looked at some of the bullshit the Democrats are spewing now, and the fact that some of the most horrid people (radical-liberals, is this a word?)are backing Obama... you might see things my way!

THIS IS MY POLITICAL STATEMENT; HERE IT, IS AND YES, I MADE!

2008-08-31T14:45:00.001-07:00

Yes, this time it was me!!!

2008-08-31T13:41:00.000-07:00

In an ongoing effort to keep it my blog a little more exciting, I did make these changes to my site! Are you excited? Yeah, me either...., but keep watching who knows maybe, by the stroke of dumb luck, I might get it where I want it to be!

Who was in my blog and why did they mess with my stuff???

2008-08-29T10:13:00.000-07:00

I didn't make the changes you see on my blog....????? Gremlins, maybe???????

We interrupt this sleep for....A...Dream?

2008-08-28T08:02:00.000-07:00

They say that people dream every night. If that's the case, I usually have no recollection of such dreams, though I have been known to wake up in a cold sweat from a nightmare here or there. For the most part, I don't seem to have such dreams. until now.
Since my surgery, I've been taking Vicodin to manage pain...and I sleep like a baby! I fall into such a deep sleep, I actually seem to be having dreams and remembering them in the morning! Some are very strange, involving some crazy ass people, serial killers and the likes .... others are including my friends, family and situations I've never found myself in before. HUM...
I would seriously love to have someone analyze my dreams of late, because they are so freaking bizarre!

But lets think about the following:
The one thing I'm not dreaming of is WORK!!! Does this mean I love not being at work!!!

For the once I'm not having that dream; you know this one...you come back from Christmas vacation and can't remember the combination to your locker

I am dreaming about hanging out with my friends and while we're are all single in my dreams, we're all the present day age.

I have dreamt about my best friend going back to his abusive relationship...that breaks my heart, mostly because in reality, I know he longs to be at that location, no matter how much he denies it.

I don't know how or why a mass Serial killer came into my dreams, as I harbor no hostility towards anybody, well, so much that I'd want to kill them....

Anyway, I'm liking this Vicodin stuff, and will be sad when I will have no excuse to use it... but until then...I'm getting great sleep, and some entertainment too!

Faces only a Nonni could love!!!!!

2008-08-26T16:28:00.001-07:00

GG just turned 3!!!

Baby K loves Nonni's spaghetti!!!
Nonni's "little Man" he's 6 months now!
Nonni's best buddies!

I just had too!!!!

Day 2 On the Road to Recovery!

2008-08-26T15:10:00.000-07:00

Ok, I promise I wont start all my postings this way! It just seemed appropriate this time... Day 2 and I'm sick of just all tv! sick of the news, Judge Judy, Montel, Maury, Janice Dickenson's Modeling Agency, (Man, someone needs to let her know... Her plastic surgeon sucks! She used to be so pretty, now she seems like a haggard bitch-who is mean to everyone... If that's the real world..No thanks!) Though, I'm loving REBA reruns! There is something about Barbara Jean that totally cracks me up!

I've come a few conclusions: I) I love my naps! Never being one to nap in the middle of the afternoon, or any other time of day... I think I could like this... the house is clean, I don't need to do laundry, I don't need to do anything 'cept recuperate II) I get to open the mail, a small rush, but hey, I'll take what I can get! III) Catching up on my buddy Vic's blog... Lucky guy, at the tender age of 46, life handed him some lemons and this guy made Lemonade !! He and his wife (Char) are now touring the country in their motor home visiting thier relatives more regularly than most people do, or in some cases want too. He recently told the tales of taking the grandkids with them and what fun they had! Vic I enjoy your tales, keep them coming! IV)I have a new found love for Vicodin, I find they actually help me sleep deep and I dream like dreams every nite! I know.... I only have 1 refill left so I'm not going nuts on them or anything!
I think the most important thing I've learn to do is relish in the quiet that surrounds me during the day that I so desperately need!

Til tomorrow!

Life as I know has just been slowed down... for a bit, anyways!

2008-08-25T15:12:00.000-07:00

Hello friends!

I have made countless promises that I would be more diligent in my postings; I guess, as you can see from the date from my last post to today's, I pretty much have blown that promise....
Sure, I can blame a busy life, grand kids, kids, pets, work, work outs, mom and other responsibilities of life, but why, that would be really boring and true. I would really love to say, "it was my cute little Italian cabana boy taking care of my every whim, that has kept me from you" while that would be much more exciting, it would also be very false.

But friends you've got me, probably, almost daily for the next 6-8 weeks... Yup, the disability bug has reared it's ugly head.

Not to go into too much detail, I had surgery last week. I thought that I would bounce right back, but I've come to the realization that I am not a spring chicken. (and, oooouuuuchhhh, that hurts to admit it) The Dr. said I'd be off 6-8 weeks....today I was told it would be the full 8 weeks. I'm thinking, yup, I'm not pushing this envelope at all.

I thought I would just bounce back from this surgery, it's been a week. Yeah, well, I'm sleeping like crap, the pain killers have created havoc with my "system" as well, as my poor system trying to work through the anesthesia, and trying to get comfortable. There is no JUST about anything right now. I'm dealing with my inner demons right now... you know the one, with the halo, that's telling you ..."you can do it, you can just get up out of that bed and cook dinner" and the other one...the one with the pitch fork telling me..." you old broad you can't do anything right now cuz your old!!!!" whatever, I'll let 'THEM" work it out...Me? I think I'll take a nap!

Talk to ya tomorrow!

OK, I Know I'm not a idiot, but Damn, I can't seem to figure this stuff out

2008-06-25T20:13:00.000-07:00

I have been now trying for several weeks to make my blog more, well, eye appealing. To date, as you can see, I have failed miserably! Time and energy just don't seem to be on my side these days. Don't give up as I may actually do it and you will be most impressed!!!

But while I'm trying to figure that out... let me ask you a question;
If you could get a glimpse into your future, would that change the way you live your present? Now you kind of know what's been going through my head lately. Do I have an answer? I have absolutely no answer for that question. I do know that we control our own destiny; but why are there so many people out there blaming someone else for life not turning out quite the way they had planned...? And while I certainly used to fall into that pattern, I've decided to pull my head out of my a**, get a grip and make some changes in my life. Can I divulge these intimate details? Of course not, but the road to recovery is a long one and over time, perhaps you'll see the changes in me!

I'm hoping for a miracle and I will make it happen!!!

I Need Your Help!

2008-05-24T23:23:00.000-07:00

How do I change my template to something less.... UGLY!??
Advice please!

Dishing on Barbie! Ok I want to be Barbie that Bitch has everything!!

2008-05-24T07:23:00.000-07:00

OK, I've told you about my daily experience at the gym, I love the gym! My Co-worker, Vick, and I go every morning Monday-Friday, from 5am to roughly 6am. We look like every other woman in there at that time of the morning. One eye open, no make up, and just generally happy to be functioning in the vertical position. (I usually am totally awake 5 minutes into the elliptical)
Our after workout conversations are usually kudos on a good workout and relief that some skinny, skanky "Barbie" isn't there to annoy us just by being.
Oh were we so very wrong! Along about day 3 it happened. In she walked, Barbie, Bitch, she's about 5ft 8 & has not an ounce of fat on her, Barbie make up was perfect, Barbie Hair ,only to complement the perfect Barbie work out clothes! Oh and should I mention she drives a brand new Barbie Jeep, Bitch!
Normally, I try, to find 1 positive thing, rather than all negative things about people. Nope not gonna happen with this Barbie! She walks in the gym with her perfect little pointed Barbie nose in the air, almost with an air of arrogance. Whatever, I'm having trouble finding something positive about her. Jealous you say??? No, I don't think so, Why you Ask...Give me another 6 months at the gym, 4 More inches of height, and I too, can be Barbie! Now,Where's Ken????

Wow, Me? A Sports Injury?

2008-05-21T21:47:00.000-07:00

Since last year, if not longer, I have been on this new regiment of diet and exercise. I was tired of getting clothes in the "tent department" * well, not really that bad *But I did think it was time that I pull my head out of the "I can't lose weight syndrome" and really get serious about it. Funny thing is... IT FREAKIN' WORKS! Diet and Exercise, who knew!
I am now down about 40 pounds and can jog 3 miles,(where before I couldn't even jog for 3 minutes) and go to "spinning" class at the gym and not fall too far behind the rest on that dreaded stationary bike. So far this has come with little or no incidence, until NOW!
I woke up in the middle of the nite, last week with what appeared to be a "Charlie Horse" I'm cool with that, I got up and stretched my right calf, cuz it's always my right calf, and went back to sleep. I didn't think it too strange to wake up with the memory of what I experienced during the night but it was normal and I could forge on. I continued my morning routine at the gym, my calf would become less tight as I moved and stretched it, and tighten up a little after a long day. Still, I thought the worst was over...notice I said THOUGHT?
I was rushing to my car yesterday after work and just as my right foot hit the pavement I felt it... POP! I practically fell to the ground in extreme pain, but I tuffed it out...got in my car and got home as quick as I could...to begin the Ice and Heat treatment..I'm not a fan of the ice treatment... burr but i do love the heating pad! Did it help? a little, did I go to the gym this am ? Absofrickinglutely! Did I do my normal Gym type stuff? Oh HELLL no and I hated every part of it...
I am resting my calf and not running and holding the walking even to a minimum...Damn, I'm perplexed as to what I did wrong to warrent such a situation, I'm not a jock nor do I pretend to be one... but wow! a sports injury...one more thing on my "been there done that list!"

And how was your day?

OK I'll Try This One More Time!!! BITCH,BITCH, BITCH!

2008-05-19T21:53:00.001-07:00

Hey All!
I have one question, can anyone answer this for me? WHY THE BLOODY HELL DOES THE WORLD DECIDE WHEN MOM SITS DOWN AT THE DAMN COMPUTER; THAT'S THE TIME TO TALK, ASK QUESTIONS AND IN GENERAL BUG THE LIVING CRAP OUT OF MOM? You know the only reason mom sat down in the first place was because everyone was doing their own thing and in general leaving mom alone!!! GADS!!!
If you notice the dates on my last entry versus the date on my newest entry you will see that approximately 3 months have past!!! 3 MONTHS!!!!
OMG!!! I have no clue who's doing what in my blogging families' lives! I miss my blogging buddies, you've kept me sane believe it or not!
The minute I sit down at the computer : it's like a magnet, BAM! "Hi mom, whatcha doing?"" can you watch the babies for a minute, while I have a life?" "Hon, how was your day?" jeez, which would be great 'cept these conversation start the minute the laptop is opened! Close down the laptop, and it's "oh I guess you were trying to blog,' or "Oh, I guess, I wont bother you, cuz your blogging" "What's good on the email front" 30 minutes people that's all I ask!!!! 30 minutes.!!
All is good right now... one kid is going to sleep, the spouse has just come out of the room one more time...looking annoyed at me.. I'm pretty much used to that; and little S is trying to get the baby to sleep.!!!! Sleep! AW SLEEP!!! Baby K has been out for the last 3 hours!!!! Which is Good!
Something I must do as 430am comes pretty darn quick especially since it's 10:30!!! Any way folks, I'm back and I will try to be a better blogger!!! I do however, need some cooperation!!!!!
Yeah, I know, good luck with that!!!!

Trying to understand the motives of others?

2008-02-18T17:51:00.000-08:00

It's a boy!!!!

2008-02-07T22:09:00.000-08:00

Well, it's finally happened and Little S has given birth to a healthy baby boy!!! 7pounds 7 oz... 20.5 inches long!!!! We shall call him "Little N" Baby K absolutely adores her new little brother, ok it's only day 4! I'm sure that will change very soon!

Wonderboy (or skippy the sperm donor) is already starting DRAMA~ whatever dude! He came running to the hospital and started crying, like a little girl! "I'm so worried about S, O M G!" *hum, I wonder if you were worried about her when you were "tapping that other girl???" Little S realized that from here on out, it will be her and the babies. In previous months, she's asked wonderboy for Diapers, and various baby essentials and he has never come through, however those nice $150.00 Nikes look really nice on his little feet, as he jumps into his lifted truck! You know about lifted trucks don't you... some people are just trying to overcompensate for their Shortcomings, if you will. the boy is mental and is proving it over and over... a few weeks ago he txt her that he 'took hella pills".... then..."he still really loved her".... then he "took more pills" and this was the kicker! "I think theyre taking effect"...funny how he took "hella pills" and was still texting.... DRAMA! We don't need it!

Little S is doing Great! She's a little stiff , sore and tired, but all in all she's doing great!

pictures soon!!!!

OUT OF THE MOUTHS OF BABES!

2008-01-26T21:11:00.000-08:00

I love you, mom and I hate to see you in pain. Sometimes ur gonna have 2 take the advice you give me. Your a beautiful woman, start doing what you want.

This was the text message Little S sent to me on Thursday! I had a slight emotional moment and basically fell apart. Something I would have preferred she not see, but since she was home and I was home, in a "mood" if you will, she witnessed, first hand, and for the first time how her strong willed, emotionally stable mom "lost her composure."

I've been telling her for 3 years now, that she needs to lose "wonder boy" father of little K and soon to be "baby N"and get on with her life without him since he seems to only want to be a father of convenience.... well, it looks likes she's been listening, but not wanting to follow my advice... hum...this is where, "when are your going to follow your own advice" came into play.

I looked at her for the first time that day as a young confident woman who will be raising her two children by herself, no not an ideal situation however, I have no doubt she'll do just fine! My only question now is can her mom follow her own advice???

Stay tuned!

Fellow Taurians UNITE!!!

2008-01-23T17:34:00.000-08:00

TAURUS- The Enduring One…
Charming but aggressive, Can come off as boring, but they are not. Hard workers. Warm-hearted. Strong, has endurance. Solid beings that are stable and secure in their ways. Not looking for shortcuts. Take pride in their beauty. Patient and reliable. Make great friends and give good advice. Loving and kind. Loves hard passionate. Express themselves emotionally. Prone to ferocious temper-tantrums. Determined. Indulge themselves often. Very generous.

Ok, So I hate when I get these emails; please pass along or you’ll have bad luck for the rest of your life…Gads! I really don’t think I need anymore bad luck in my life!
I am however, sharing with you TAURUS! This description, out of all the descriptions of Taurians is by far the most accurate of me!

I am Strong willed, determined and I do love to indulge myself in my many different quirks; and I love to feel secure in; relationships, future and with myself. (notice how I put myself last in that statement? Not good)

Am I a great friend? Yes, I do believe so! I still have friends, from oh lets see, Pre School! While time may fly and we don’t see each other often, the Internet has become a lifeline between myself and my childhood friends as well as helping me locate some lost friends. (Although sometimes I have to wonder if this was a good thing or a bad thing. Friendships have to work two ways or they just don’t work. Have I set myself up for a broken heart, somedays I feel, yes I have)

Am I prone to ferocious temper-tantrums? ABSO-FRICKEN-LUTELY!!! (I wish, sometimes I could really let those who deserve my "wrath" have it 100% they might reconsider their actions.) I do have a very short Italian fuse, another thing that I am working on in 2008

I am generous to a FAULT. Some might actual call me an idiot! I do like to think I'm,‘warm-hearted, and generous” and these are qualities many people don’t have, without expecting something in return. I don’t but, perhaps maybe I should rethink this one!

Help Me!!!! I'm Stuck in the 70's and I Like it!!!!!

2008-01-09T20:41:00.000-08:00

Ok, I did it. I have become one of those people who are into the latest gadgets! I bought Satellite Radios as Christmas Gifts, for a lot different reasons; while getting the "connection" I was offered my own personal Satellite Radio...That's it dangle that carrot in front of my face...I took the bait! I received my own radio a few days later, complete with car kit ( OK well while I like the latest gadget... I'm completely inept at the whole instillation process, so it may never make it in my car) SOLD!!!

Two of my favorite Supervisors have Satellite Radios, Don's is in his new car; I got the whole Satellite experience while we were driving to a meeting about an hour away! Jim has one installed in his car as well as a portable unit, like mine, in his office, only difference..He's got a power cord!!!! Maybe the correct word would be "had" He made the mistake of loaning me his power cord...and well, it's still in my possession! (I'll give it back... really I will!!!)

I've sampled many of the stations, thus far, Comedy, News, Dr. Laura Talk, nothing beats channel 7...THE SOUNDS OF THE SEVENTIES!!! OMG!!!! I'm so hooked on that station!!! I have a friend who is hooked on Flight 26...Sounds of Today and the 90's. He'll text me with the song they're playing ... I'll text him back with a sound of the 70's... It's alot of fun! I'm listening to old Eagles, Fleetwood Mac, Paper Lace, Tony DiFranco and the DiFranco Family, The Partridge Family, Ringo Starr, George Harrison, Paul McCartney when they when solo, Abba, The Osmond Brothers and OMG Bobby Sherman!!!!!*when was the last time you heard Bobby Sherman!?*

The best part is that I find myself sitting in my office singing these songs... Yes, these very old songs!(yes, I remember most of the words!) Today, I was in rare performance mode, with my door closed (thankfully to those who know I can't carry a tune!) I'm singing my heart out! Anyone going by my office could see me (or hear me, if you will) singing my little 70's hit! The weird part was I was thinking to myself this morning.... The haven't played "YO YO" by the Osmonds.... 3 hours later..."just like a yo-yo" Donny, the brothers and I were in perfect tune!

Yes, I am stuck in the 70's and yes, I do like it!!!!

OMG! IT'S REALLY YOU!!!!

2008-01-07T19:10:00.000-08:00

When I was younger, I used to work in a grocery store. It was a lot of fun! For the most part I enjoyed it, it was sometime gruelling work, I sometime totally disliked the customers but I loved the vendors, who brought in our breads, soda and beer.. It was like it was a prerequisite to be a adorable in order to get a job! *To those doing the hiring....I applaud you!*
I remember one in particular, he drove for a pastry company...I thought he was the most handsome man ever put on this earth! He was cute, funny and all the things a 20year old girl would drool over! I loved to flirt with him, he flirted back! another endearing quality!!! I absolutely loved(lusted) him. He was the "ideal" man..well 25 years ago, anyway! He had a couple of flaws but I didn't care....Then it happened he got transferred to a different route! How could this be? My days at work suddenly got longer! But I never forgot him...and apparently he didn't forget me either.
Fast forward with me, if you will, 24years... My sister still works at the store and My delivery man was rerouted to the store again. One day, as sis is climbing up the stairs to her office, he tells the receiving clerk, "I know her sister..." That night I received a call from sis asking me "to spill" So I spilled, with her face,I'm sure, contorted to that "disbelief, yet, yep, I'm so glad I didn't know about that, then" look on her face. I told her if you see him tell him I said "hi" well, my sister being my sister, who is very opposite of me, (she would be the introverted one) never did...
Saturday, I had to visit sis at the store...as we are walking out, this delivery guy walks past us.."Hola" he says... hmmmm... my sister looks at me like,DAH and hits me on the arm.."hello, that's him!" I looked at her, I looked at him, I looked at her again, "NOOO" was all I could say...then I followed him back to the check in desk...he turns around and looks at me as though my eyes have bored holes right through him..."Anni?" He said as a huge smile crossed his lips.. (oh those lips!) He was a little grayer than before, after all it has been 25 years or so, but he was still handsome, even without the mustache. We reminisced about our marriages, his divorces and compared kids and grandkids... He's got 2 more kids and 2 more grandkids than I do! It was fun! We caught up with each other and went our separate ways! All in all, it was a great day!!!!!!

And Now For The Weather!!!

2008-01-05T17:59:00.000-08:00

OMG!!! We Central California folk are seriously spoiled by our California weather! Very seldom do we, here, in the Big Valley, experience what we have experienced in the last 48 hours! We are just now seeing an end to our Severe Weather Alerts! Left behind however are the remnants of flooded gutters, fallen trees, downed fences and in general debris strung from one end of the neighborhood to the other.Don't get me wrong we have rain, and winds and stormy weather but for the most part not nearly as severe as have just experienced. WOW!

I sat, watching, in disbelief, the news commentators explain and show visuals just how bad the winds were! How bad were they? They were so bad that they literally knocked over SEMI TRUCKS!!! In my little town, the winds at one point were up 50 mph! Wild huh?

My sister works in a grocery store, she stated that people come into the store in a panic to purchase, firewood, water, batteries, candles, flashlights, and other assorted "storm supplies" to the point that they store was out of supplies! Can you believe that? Total panic mode. Shouldn't this be something one should be prepared for?

Friday my Girls called me around 10am, at work, to let me know our power was out and they were bored,I told them find something to do and let me get back to work. Anyway,I got home and they girls were sitting on the couch listening to little G's ipod! No fighting, no nothing, they looked as if they were actually getting along with one another!!!! Praise the lord! I went out to the garage and grabbed the camping gear, including the propane! Is it silly of me to over buy propane? I think not! My lantern saved the day!!! It was a cozy evening just around 9pm, I glance over at the spouse who was asleep, glanced at Little G who what entranced with her movie on her Ipod.. ( that is a clever little gadget!)and decided I will seize the moment and take a hot steaming bath by candle light... just as my big toe hits the water... the lights come on! Damn! Oh well, a nice relaxing bath, here I come just the same.

My friend, who lives in the Sierra foothills stated he's been without power, since Friday morning...that sucks if your not a survivor, and you have a well that runs all your water issues...*potty especially* or teenage girls!!! hee hee! My girls are grossed out when the toilet gets clogged, imagine not being able to flush for 2 days.! That actually kind of grosses me out as well!

I think we'll all be back to normal very soon...Whatever normal is. Many people around here WILL have to do some damage control. But it could have been much worse and it was in other parts of the valley and parts of California, I'm waiting to see what the levee behind my house does.... *grimacing at the thought of the levee breaking!*

2008-01-01T19:14:00.000-08:00

Your Birthdate: May 10

You don't just believe in love at first site - you've experienced it.
You develop crushes pretty easily, but keeping your interest is another matter!
You are very prone to love - hate relationships.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 2

You are most compatible with people born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, and 28th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

SHE ARISES WITH A FRESH START AND A NEW ATTITUDE!!!

2008-01-01T17:08:00.000-08:00

Hello Dear Blogging Friends! Happy New Year to you all!!! Where the hell have I been? What the hell have I been doing? Who the hell have I been doing? Am I all right? Well... In a few short words! Yes, I'm fabulous and I will be Alright very soon!!!!! I suppose I do have some kinks I still need to work out, and serious decisions to make that would be life altering for the family but for now...it's all o.k.

Jennifer and Bre want to know why haven't I been blogging... and well, Darin, you too, probably have wondered...it's been exactly 3 months today since I last laid my words down... and well, it looks like I'm in need of my "therapy" once again to keep me sane. Maybe I will go into it later... currently, it's killing me.... so if I just let some feelings out... maybe I will feel better.

HAPPY NEW YEARS ! I hate New Years and all the hype that's attached. When I was younger, it was all about the party and date...well, I never had the date and when you didn't have the date, you didn't have the party. I did go to a couple of parties in my younger days, single with friends and decided it was the worst time I ever had; words can't describe how i felt at midnight and kissing....NO ONE. This is a useless holiday. It's a day for all to set these goals and never keep them... to these people. I say...Stick to the plan, because it's usually a goal you've made to better yourself~

My New Years Resolution, for last year it was to become better organized "The Year of the Organized Ann.. and well, I think for the most part I have been successful almost to the point of becoming anal... This was the first year I completed my resolution!!!!

This year my resolution is to become a runner! Yes, folks that means I have to set some goals, I actually set them last year and have successfully carried them out. The rewards have been plentiful! I started my jogging venture last September, I couldn't jog for 2 minutes without becoming winded, dizzy, light headed and feeling like a big fricking loser. To date I have been able to jog 2 miles, non-stop. This is a major accomplishment for me! The first reward... comments...."Have you lost weight?" "wow, you look good!" The second reward...walking into a department store(not a lane Bryant) and walking out with 3 pairs of pants, that fit!!!!! Oh yeah, what a boost of the ego!! My 3rd reward will be when I finish my first Marathon, I will have to follow through with this as I have just written this goal down! I was going to do a half marathon next September with a friend, but as of today, I believe I have been dumped....

New Attitude.
My friend has decided not to call me or text me to wish me a Happy New Years and let me know he's o.k....As much as this hurts...I have to move forward and not rely on him to get me through this training or run with me in September or anything else, I suppose, it hurts like a son of a bitch that I have been dumped even from "friend" status, but I will eventually be o.k. There is a 5K marathon training Mid January, which will last for 9 weeks...I'm there. With or without any one's support, but the support of my running buddies...hopefully I will make some new friends.

This is the year of "it's all about me!" Along with that may come some serious changes! I know it sounds selfish, but it's time to take care of me!!!!! Mentally and physically!!!

Here's to a wonderful 2008!!!! I promise to write more often!!!!! Ann

What to do? what to do?

2007-10-01T19:39:00.000-07:00

It's Monday nite and I'm sitting in my house all by myself!!!! Some would be sad, to be sitting in their house all by themselves, on a Monday Nite.

But not me! Tonight I am relishing in quiet solitude! After the last couple of weeks: the audit (which went very well by the way), my 21st anniversary, Little S's 20th Birthday, My mom's birthday, Little S, basically taking baby K and leaving for a week because she feels she's been wronged in some way(whatever). A very dear friend had a pretty intense surgery (And he's doing very well!) Stress eating, the Home computer is down, My laptop isn't compatible with my printer, I can't seem to get the current version drivers to down load from the website.. ah hell! The fun just never stops!!!! I had a (little S induced ) meltdown on Tuesday, called my friend and Cried my eyes out! Actually it felt pretty good. I felt bad since he had just had surgery the Friday before and going through his own crises. But, I thank God he just let me cry!! Told me I was doing the right thing. I wasn't a bad parent and agreed, that it was time she grew the heck up! (those are my words) Life's lessons are learned hard sometimes! So suffice it to say... GOOD BYE SEPTEMBER!!!!!!!

So here it is October 1st!!! I'm sitting in the living room, watching what ever I want, remote control in my possession. My laptop in MY LAP!!! It won't be a long quiet but it will be quiet for awhile!!! It's all Good!!!! Hope your Monday is going as good!!!

DAY 1 OF THE AUDIT AND I THINK IT'S ALL GOOD WELL FOR ME ANYWAY!!!

2007-09-18T22:11:00.000-07:00

Well as promised, I will let you know how the audit is going , at least in my own mind anyway!

IT'S GOING BETTER THAN I THOUGHT!!!!!!

As I suspected, I was up first for the Safety part... items to be covered, DOT files, OSHA Training, company required training and the required documentation.

I have poured over and over my DOT * Department of Transportation* files for the last 6 months. I knew they were in great order. If there was any documentation missing I actually had a document in it's place explaining why it was missing and I had actually attempted to find anything missing. He took 5 DOT files and went through them with a fine tooth comb. out of 75 items he was looking for, 1 item was missing.!!!! He said my files looked great! (Pays to be "anal" I suppose!)

My training files, he said are better than most he's seen! My head is swelling! He did ask for a couple of items I knew I had, however, I couldn't find. I put them in a Safe Place.*shaking my head as that "safePlace" is more like the black hole!* I really need to quit doing that, it will be my demise for sure! We spent about 3 hours on my training binders and it looks like I'll keep my job for another day.!!!!

My Certificates of insurance were organized and ready to be looked at however, my company seems to ask for very large sums of coverage, and most smaller businesses can't afford the premiums so there are some issues there which it almost sounds like it shouldn't be too much of a problem??? I guess we'll see.

Our Safety Auditor is something else...He's one of these very " safety on the mind" guys with a very bizzare sense of humor... however it's a bit too much when he is complaining about one of our Mechanic's coverall being...too dirty! GADS - I'm seriously shaking my head at that one! shop, garbage company you figure it out!

We'll be having a closing interview on Friday and hopefully all will be well and we'll have passed with flying colors.!!!!!

All the stress and long hours..(and I did work almost 49 hours last week to make sure all is in order, definitely paid off! ) I wasn't sure Friday whether I was going to make it through, with out killing someone!~ Thanks Rob for letting me vent!!

And how's your week going?

I can't believe I'm doing it again!!!!

2007-09-14T20:40:00.000-07:00

In February WE (we meaning Management) received a memo from our Controller that there was going to be an audit in September. February, People!!!!! Well, guess what September is upon us and so is the audit and everyone is in a panic.! OMG!

I've been since April slowly going through my files, getting everything organized, because, after all this is the "year of the organize Ann!" I've been relatively calm, for my usual uptight self, and thinking "I'm good! I've got everything organized and I'm ready." Enter... the other players! My favorite 3 supervisors: Dave, who is on it! He's doing what he supposed to be doing when he is supposed to be doing and does it without incident. Don, Who is right behind Dave in the getting things done. He started the year with a serious health issue but is back to his old self with the exception, he's not at work 13 hours a day. But stuff got done, maybe not on the same time schedule as Dave but he's on it! I needn't worry. Then there's Jim! I love Jim the most! He' s my procrastinator... Last minute in everything... but yet the first to Stress out...I think Jim is seriously A.D.D.!!! He's always bouncing from one thing to the other, and always goes out of his way for his drivers! And seems to be the Butt of every one's jokes he takes it in stride most of the time!
CONVERSATIONS I'VE HAVE WITH MY 3 FAVORITE SUPERVISORS!

Dave: Do you have my Safety meeting notes for the First 3 months of the year?

ME: Huh? Aren't they in your safety meeting binder I prepared for you? '

Dave: No I remember I gave them to you.

ME: HUH????!!!! (He probably did...I 've got a crappy memory and stress doesn't help.)

Me: Don, you don't seem as stressed as everyone else ... you're totally on top of it!

Don: NO, not really, just not verbalizing my stress...

Me thinking to myself...Don I want your valium!

Me: Jim do you have all your safety meetings up to date???

Jim: I will by the end of the week.

Me: How far behind....oh no don't tell me!

Jim: remember those driver MVR reports you gave me back in March..???

Me: YYYEEESSSS. (hating what I'm about to hear, yet knowing what is about to come out of his mouth)

Jim: I found them,

Me: I knew I gave them to you!

We both smile, I promised Jim I would turn in to a nag from now on if we pass this audit with semi flying colors, so I never have to deal with late paperwork again!

Oh what fun,!!! Oh what headaches I've been having. Oh what knots in my neck! I have to admit though it's not all work! Actually I love being at work and I love my 3 boys! There is something calm in the fact that I neither married them nor gave birth to them!!!

it's been a helluva week!

But I have turned myself back into a fricking workaholic again and It hasn't been too good for my mental or physical well being... 2 more weeks and It will be all over! I'm up first on Monday morning! Am I confident I'm in Compliance with DOT and OSHA!??? ABSOLUTELY MAYBE! ok about 98%

BUT I'LL LET YOU KNOW !!!

It's off to bed now as I've got to work tomorrow (Saturday) morning

Happy Friday people, I did have opportunity to go camping, I should have gone camping!

HAS IT REALLY BEEN A MONTH???

2007-09-13T00:27:00.000-07:00

Hey Guys!
I'm looking at my last post and see it's been almost a month since I last signed on! I signed on this morning (and yes, it 12:30am) and almost couldn't remember my password, what a spazzz! Alas,here I am! Yes, I should be asleep as I will be up in about 4.5 hours, but I needed to let you know, Ann is still among the living!
What's new, you ask?
Well, I could say, "not much", but I would be lying, I could go into detail, but, that would be boring. So suffice it to say, a lot has been going on!

Yes, my friends this would be Harry Wayne Casey or as you 70's kids would know him as K.C. of K.C. and the Sunshine Band!!!!! Oh my God!!! He played at the State Fair, in Sacramento at the end of August, my friend Liz and I went, we were like 11 rows from the stage! OMG!!!! I felt like I was 15 again!!!! It was awesome or I guess I should say Groovy? Cool? (though it was hardly cool that day! 108 degrees that day...0 so much for looking all...sexy ! Not with sweat running down your back and other places! The first words out of his mouth was "damn it's hotter than hell, here!" The crowd went wild! That didn't seem to stop KC from giving us a most excellent show! He announced to the younger members of the audience..." for those too young to know who I am, I'm your mother's Justin Timberlake!" Again the crowd loved it.! His back up singers were fabulous and his dancers, well, I'm thinking they had been pole dancers in a previous life... But the show was incredible and he still has it for being 57! Still dances like a "white boy", but who cares! that night he was 30 years younger and so was I!!!!

Football season has snuck in again! GO BEARS!!!! That's me and baby K, Suited up and ready!!!! Not the best picture of Nonni, but oh well!!! It's game day!!!!! Well, it was not the best game, but the way I figure it is, they have one gratuitous bad game and then it's back to a 15-1 season! Go Bears!
How About Kevin Everette! Man, it seems that he's beaten some serious odds there! from "we're not sure hes going to make it to, He's never going to walk again to it's a miracle! It looks like while his career could be at an end, His life isn't! And that's really all that's important! Godspeed Kevin!
I was in my first football pool last week....I suck! I had some help with my picks. Rob,(my cute Italian) now knows I pick a team based on less than athletic ability and more like , hummmm I like jeff fisher, he's cute or .... I can't stand that quarter back he's a jerk, that coach is an arrogant prick (I'm hoping that's an endearing quality, since I know "Jack "about sports! Which is how I also pick my NASCAR driver, Elliot Sadler!Baby is adorable! plus he looks good in RED!)etc. and well, of course I picked my boys from Chicago, cuz, they're my Boyz! Come on Rexy, I'm in your corner!!! I though, have grown to love Payton Manning! He's a total crack up! I love his humor...he's on Bob and Tom in the Morning , oh my God he's hilarious!

Summer is done and School is in! little G is now in the 8th Grade, and will be doing the 8th grade trip to Washington DC next month! She's excited yet a bit nervous about the Plane. I tried to assure her she'll be fine! 1000's of planes fly everyday without any problems...She'll have a blast!

Anyway friends I just looked at the clock and it's really late I can just go to be to get up in a short 3 hours and spend another relaxing day at the job! We're preparing for a huge 2 week audit.... funny thing is we've known about this audit since February and everyone NOW is stressing about it as it will begin next Monday! Geez people get a grip!

And how are you guys doing? I've missed you and I will promise to stay in better contact!

Can you frickin believe this????

2007-08-15T19:33:00.000-07:00

Welp, I finally got my car back from the Kia Dealership last Saturday after they had it for the last 2 weeks! They have fixed my little vehicle! Yeah!!!!! I was very happy that I could pick it up last Friday... the final bill....$25.00!!! Kia took care of everything else! New Radiator, new fan blades, new head gasket, they worked on my cylinders and the 25 bucks was for the new spark plugs that were replaced! Cool!.. I get into my little car and wow what a difference from, the last time I drove it! Check engine light sensor...NOT ON!!! cool deal! I made sure that they knew if that little sensor light came on again they would see me very soon! They said no problem, we'll be here! Cool deal! I leave the dealership smiling like I was driving away a brand new car!!!!!! I was so happy to have my little Kia back... then it happened... I'm on the "5" on my way to Sacramento, on Sunday nite... yes, a day and a half later and look down at the dash... and guess what...Yep you got it.. the Check engine sensor is shining brightly at me!!!!! DAMN!!!! Thought they got it right this time! Apparently not... Needless to say... my little Kia will be visiting them again..... and again, until they get it right.! They've been great to say the least and I think they know I'm not the average "female car owner" I try to speak with them intelligently when I do speak with them, and not in some sort of "I'm a blonde" type of fashion! I'll keep you updated!

Have you ever heard of the word. TURBID? I'm doing this new thing ... I go to the Websters Dictionary.com word of the day and learn a new word. One day last week the word was Turbid... you know...Muddy, unclear..... think about it, it sounds... like the perfect work for unclear.... Muddy, if you will. I have actually now used this word a couple of times in describing some people .... hum.... plus it just never hurts to learn something new.... correct???

I recently completed a 14 hour CAL/OSHA training course! It was very intense and very informative..... we as Californians, though have to take everything to the extreme! Human Resources in California is a hoot, to say the least!

Little S started her externship as a Medical Assistant last week. Needless to say she has been to 4 different places... the first two because they found out she was pregnant ( I guess these perticualr Dr. 's offices didn't allow this condition... however illegal it is) and then she went to another place and the Dr yelled at her the first day....hummmmmmm I tried to tell her that Dr.s think of themselves slightly higher than God...she left after the second day... then she started at another place and absolutley loves it! loves the Dr., staff and the patients...One guy today told her... "you're the pretty blonde, my son told me about." That did it..... She's hooked!

Little G is now officially in the 8th grade...Lord, have mercy on my soul.... she's becoming quite the teenager.... it's funny to watch... and it's funny because she's acting like little S... Little S just denies this fact and shakes her head! too funny!!!!!

Baby K started a new day care last week as well..... Did I tell you she got kicked out of the other one... for bitting? GADS! Oh well, she's got a stubborn streak...is this a bad thing?????

All Is Well In Ann's World!!! (I think!)

2007-08-03T08:20:00.000-07:00

My home computer took a dump again.. Every time I pull the Laptop out of the case I have Little G looking over my shoulder asking to go on to her MYSPACE. Sorry not gonna happen on my computer...
"go to one of your friend's houses and use their computer..."
Her reply... "most of them don't have a computer, which is why they come over and use ours..."
My Reply... "That sucks, man"

G..."moooooooooooooommmmmmmm"

(have I mentioned ever, I don't like Whiners?)

Me: " sorry Kiddo, I told you, not to do the whole MYSPACE thing which is probably the reason we have a virus,... yet again, and your not using the laptop"

G: " That sucks, when I get my laptop, I'm not letting you use it!"

Me: "Groovy, Marcia- but I will survive"

then I get the "look"

I AM (SUPER)MOM, AND I WILL DEFLECT "THE LOOK"AS WELL!

I think I'm over my depression, well, at least I'm functioning again, I don't cry when I walk down the coffee Isle at the grocery store.. How sad it that, anyway?

I think I have pulled my sh*t together and wont completely lose my mind and I am in control of my emotions. I think that was the hardest thing for me to admit to was I was not in control of my emotions. *what was that about anyway?* and I have told people in my life that I was not happy with their treatment of me. *smiling thinking about how good that felt*

Currently however, I am having an issue with my little Kia Car... it's broke, dead if you will.... the fan blades broke off and went through my radiator, well isn't that just flipping great! So, it's at the dealership, I dislike dealing with dealership maintenance managers... they seriously blow...*frowning at the thought of him...* The fan issue is a factory recall, but then "uber manager" came up with 2 of my 4 cylinder valves were bad... Great... now because of the warranty they want to see service records... Hello...???? Ann, "idiot extraordinaire" that I am, tossed them... and now I have to prove to them that I maintain my vehicle properly. OH BROTHER!!!!! The fan issue is actually covered at this point however, not the cylinder issue... Time for a new car??? GADS!

On top of everything else, now this...I'm smiling, I'm laughing, I'm not going to let this get to me... If I can still drive it for a couple more years, it will all be good! Andrea, I know you know about car issues... this really blows! My car is only 5 years old and I seriously don't abuse it...But just another little obstacle one must hurdle.

And how are you guys doing?

Truth in Latte!

2007-07-24T17:17:00.001-07:00

What Your Latte Says About You

You are easygoing and pretty simple to please. You don't put up a fuss... ever.

You can be quite silly at times, but you know when to buckle down and be serious.

Intense and energetic, you aren't completely happy unless you are bouncing off the walls.

You're addicted to caffeine. There's no denying it.

You are responsible, mature, and truly an adult. You're occasionally playful, but you find it hard to be carefree.

You are complex and philosophical, but you are never arrogant.

What Does Your Latte Say About You?

Why Does Loving Someone Have to Hurt So Much?

2007-07-22T07:47:00.001-07:00

This would be the question of the day?

When do we grow the hell up an appreciate that there are people out who love you for just being you?

Why does there have to be some type of game played, or truthlessness invovled. I've never asked for much...other than be honest with me. But maybe it's time to start asking for MUCH!!!Don't I deserve world too???

My friends, any thoughts?????

THIS IS WHY I LOVE MY FRIEND, VIC!!!!

2007-07-17T21:55:00.000-07:00

I have this friend, Vic, who has been my friend since Kindergarten. So one could essentially say we have been friends for 40 years! I emailed him recently to find out how he is doing, He' s had to retire do to back and neck issues. Poor guy has had 3 different surgeries and they just couldn't get him back to where he needed to be...so he gets to retire. Lucky little shit! He told me that he and his wife have sold the house and are taking a little cross country trip, in their 29 ft fifth wheel...they will be out and about traveling for the next year..!!! how cool is that...

Anyway, Vic's shoulders are broad, he listened to my "Poor me" story the other day. He, I'm sure, was shaking his head the whole time he was reading my email... wondering where did the "real Ann go" cuz the person who sent this email has clearly lost it! We went back and forth for a few emails... and he gave it to me straight to say the least.. "find yourself, first, that I needed to be able to stand on my own two feet not to rely on anyone or have anyone rely on me...He told me I needed to be pampered.....HUM Pampered...this is a novel, strange yet intriguing word, Pampered...He told me if the people in my life can't seem to do it then it was high time to find someone who would. WOW! Pampered, how does one act when pampered.???? I know, and those who know me know that I would probably reject this strange word... as I have always been so damn independent...I wanted to be the strong female and well, look where it has gotten me... so obviously there is a fine line and I have to find it along with someone who knows this " pampered " word. Vic, you held nothing back in giving me the information I knew all along, but you gotta help me find this Mr. Right person, who will pamper me...Me? wow? I might like that! Vic, here's to another 40 years! Happy trails my friend and be safe out there!

Sounds of Summer Where Did They Go??

2007-07-16T22:50:00.000-07:00

I was born and raised in the Big Valley. Lived in the same house my whole life, until I got married. I remember our house was somewhat the hub of the neighborhood, my dad made sure that there was an abundance of "playground" equipment at our disposal. I supposed so we were not "running the Neighborhood" There was a hopscotch painted on the driveway, not to mention teatherball and foursquare .. and 35 gallon garbage can filled with rubberballs, baseballs, footballs, jumpropes, baseball gloves *pretty cool and modern for a house with no boys- it was after all, the 70's!* and the ever popular tire pump to keep all bike tires and balls in fine working order, oh and I almost forgot the 18 foot long, 4 foot deep doughboy pool in our backyard.

We would play outside for hours, ride our bikes, then as it turned dusk, our parents would bring their lawn chairs and congregate on our front porch and talk... OH MY GOD they would talk for hours, no alcohol was ever involved, no loud music, just the quiet sounds of summer: kids playing "hide and seek", laughter, and the sound of crickets chirping as if they were making their own summer time memories....

Now lets fast forward, to the year 2007. We-my family- have lived in the same house now for 17 years. We have never formed the same bond with our neighbors that my parents did. My kids have only played "hide and seek" at family functions, with their cousins... I don't even hear the crickets anymore! I miss the damn crickets! I don't even like crickets! There is something however, very comforting in the sound that a cricket makes, it takes me back to a time when my life was simple, uncomplicated and I knew people loved me, not because they could get something from me, but because I was their daughter, sister, friend-unconditionally-they loved me- When did life become so damn complicated? And where are those damn crickets!!!???

MY WiSH!!!

2007-06-28T21:55:00.000-07:00

This is my wish for ... ME!!!!

A log cabin by the lake, it will have to "house" the following items;

1) A waterfall within an earshot of the cabin

2) An overstuffed king sized, 4 poster bed, with crisp clean linens
3) A fire place that takes up one wall of the cabin and of course the endless supply of wood
4) Jacuzzi tub in the bathroom, cuz the bed can't see all the action!
5) A nice light wine ... Or bottle of Jack Daniels it doesn't matter, I still get "faced" either way.
6) Really good romantic music
7) A really large candle that will burn all night without me worrying about it
8) One very sweet and romantic Italian to make sure I don't worry about said candle.
9) Slipping off the radar for about ... hummm a really long time or until the 'spring thaw"
10) My dream to come true!

sweet dreams my friends!!! I think I just might!!!

I Love County Fairs!!!

2007-06-22T22:33:00.000-07:00

I seriously love our county fair, each year they've brought in some really good bands! Where can you see an awesome band for a mere $8.00 a ticket? This year was no exception. Last year we took Granddaughter #1(little little G) to see STYX, she was as impressed as a 10 month old could be. This year we took Granddaughter #2 (baby K) to see REO Speedwagon.. the thing with K, she was a couple months older than Little Little G was and very much into Music! She's got the beat, my baby K. Of course it was the hottest stinking day so far of the summer but we survived!!!

Nonni and baby K anxiously awaiting for the concert to start!
REO Speedwagon rocked the place... however it was hotter than hell...112 degrees on stage... Kevin Cronan comes out wearing black leather pants Now I like a man in leather pants as much as the next girl..but damn, it was hot!

Baby K loved the concert and got to dance in the isle with a new friend, she had a blast!

So that was Opening day! There was the ususal Eddie Money, He's here every year. We also had weird Al , Starship with Mickey Thomas and this year, OMG Frankie Valli!!!!! I totally love Frankie Valli! Yes, you know How I feel about Italian men.. This man can still hit the high notes, I swear he surprised himself a couple of times!

Still as handsome as ever!!! just a little grey!

Back up singers were absolutely awesome!

No, really is this the last song? It was the best show I have seen in awhile!

YES, DEAR FRIENDS SHE HAS EMERGED FROM THIS CHAOS SHE CALLS HER LIFE!!

2007-06-12T21:34:00.000-07:00

Hey you guys! Thanks for caring! In recent days, weeks, it appears, I have sat down at my computer and found, I had nothing interesting to say, and what I did have to say, was not to positive nor anything that could be shared with complete strangers. This doesn't mean I'm calling my blogging buddies complete strangers, (God no, you guys are my Cyber family and I would tell you anything. and I am actually dying to tell you a couple of things, just not yet, however)it's the lookie loos who don't talk but, just read and go on... voyeurs I think is a good word for it. lets' see what can Ann share with her friends!

oh here's one! I learned to jet ski last weekend! And yes, I am totally hooked! I loved the speed, and the wind in my hair and just the rush. It reminds me of being on a motorcycle, before helmet laws came into effect. My little Kia is able to tow a jet ski, so that's not even an issue... right now, MONEY, and hummmm oh yeah Money is the issue. Just kind of a big investment, but I WILL have one by next summer for sure!
The fam went camping with a co-worker & family and some of their friends as well last weekend and got the best tan I have ever gotten! But my skin is so not very happy with me. Being the White girl I am, I'm not really one to tan very well, though one would think my Italian genes would kick in sometime, but, it's never been the case...So... I spf'd my face with Clinique's 40 and spf'd the rest of me with Cliniques 30. It seems extreme for this Cali-girl, however, I dread to think what my skin would've look like had I not taken these pre-cautions! (plus I want to look good when I'm 50!) I love camping but am always ready to go home by the last day, just to shower and sleep in my own bed!!!
I'm still in touch with my long lost love Rob! He's an amazing person. But that's all I'm gonna say. Plus you know I promised you, I would not mention him once I found him again. I'm so very glad I found him. Everyone should know someone like him! He is such a caring, compassionate person, I'm very lucky to have him back in my life! OK now, I'm done... I reserve the right to talk about him again, however! He makes me smile .... Alot!
I'm almost done with my H/R program I think I have 4 or 5 more weeks left! Thank God, there is this woman in the class that I would love to slap the living crap out of her every time she opens her mouth....Not too H/R-like is it? Yup, just a little bitter, oh my God I seriously think she annoys the hell out of everyone in the class. She's the kid in grammar school, who no doubt, asked for homework during Christmas Vacation!
I'm sorry, I've neglected you guys, for God, it looks like 3 weeks, I missed you guys alot. I'd come home from work and go back out and walk my 4 miles, yes, I'm up to 4 miles, and then I'd shower and fall into a dead sleep, then start the whole thing again...GADS, what a life for me...
Anyway... that's Ann's life. it's not a bad life, just busy! I'm glad I had a chance to breath tonite...but, by the look of the cyberclock, it's time for a shower and bed...or these days.... couch!!!
remember I love you guys! and again, Sorry for worrying you!!!!

THAT'S RIGHT! I'M THE EMPRESS... BOW, SUBJECTS!!! HEE HEE

2007-05-26T10:01:00.000-07:00

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?
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Our Baby K is Officially 1!

2007-05-17T22:42:00.000-07:00

Well, here she is our birthday girl!

sitting here with her mom taking it all in!
and of course the gratuitous photo of nonni and baby K
As suspected, she like the wrapping and boxes better!
but man was she tired by the end of the day!

It was a beautiful day in the park! The weather was perfect! The Gods were looking down on us last Saturday, making sure everything was perfect for Baby k's first birthday! She had cake, friends, presents, bubbles and hot dogs! what more could a kid want! Too bad it totally didn't phase her... she had no clue what was going on around her, but we did get some great photos! I think between all digitals involved it was about 300 photos...Spoiled Rotten Baby!

So Concludes This Birthday Weekend! Gothman, this shot's for you!!!!

2007-05-14T07:36:00.000-07:00

So, this is it folks! The birthday weekend is over, I have turned another year older(no wait, never older,I turned another year wiser!) and baby K has turned a year!

This has been an incredible weekend, though it started on Thursday, but man am I glad it's over!

Thursday was my birthday!!!! Yeah!!! I worked half a day, and then so stared the fun, I had lunch with an wonderful friend and then went to watch Little G bowl, then pizza and shots! One of Little G's bowling mates' father's was also celebrating his birthday as well, and so started the party! I kept up with him, a "seasoned" partyer, I suspect, 7 shots for 7 shots!!! JD straight! I probably should have stopped at shot number 4, put pushed on to #5, by #6, I was feeling no pain and well, by #7 I felt nothing, my face was numb! I woke up at 2am with a flipping head ache and stomach ache, thought I would die...MY OWN FAULT! Took some Excedrin, which worked for the headache, but the stomach was on it's own...I pushed on, took my mom to the dentist, went to work, took baby K to CHUCK E. CHEESE FOR HER BIRTHDAY ... ICK!!!!

Went shopping for baby K's birthday party the next day and made salads. etc....

Saturday, got up and walked my 3 miles, and got ready for the party and then was out in the park for 6 hours, finished up there, went to dinner, then hit the Ron White Comedy Show, which was hilarious! came home and went to sleep only to start my Mothers day, pretty much the the same way! Crap! There was a lot of activity going on... I'm glad it's Monday and I have to go to work! I can actually catch my breath!!!

IM IT AGAIN!!!

2007-05-09T18:34:00.000-07:00

This is it: Bananas (Ann) from A to Z…

Thanks Mistress…

A)Available or Single… isn’t this the same? No, I don’t think it is…hum… Yes, I suppose I’m available, but no I’m not single…** hummmm***
B)Best Friend…My sister, Debi. And Liz, we’ve been friends since the 3rd grade and I would consider Denise one of my best friends, we’ve been friends for the last 15 or so years… she knows things, like I don’t care for her husband. I can’t just have one… they are all my best friends for different reasons!
C)Cake or Pie…While both are just wrong for this Italian girl cuz, it will just go straight to my A**, I love Tiramisu and Italian Rum Cake. But alas, I must not indulge… too much cake makes for too much Ann!~
D)Drink of Choice…I love Ice water not a big fan of soda, though, it would be Diet Pepsi if I do drink soda., I hate diet coke.… oh and Jack Daniels Straight!!! Gothman…Prost! **as she slams back the shot, and she’ll be slamming back a few on the 10th Gothman, join us for pizza and shots!**
E)Essential Items…Hair straightener, Make up (Make up whore) my laptop, my cell, my contacts/glasses, CD’s, my CAR!!!
F)Favorite Color … Red is the only color for this gal! Black comes in a close second,
G)Gummi Bears or Worms…Bears…SOUR in all honesty, I’d rather have Jelly Bellys…
H)Hometown…Stockton, CA the Big Valley
I)Indulgence…oh… can’t let you guys know that!*thinking and smiling to herself*. oh alright, Hammock set up in the backyard, trashy novel and nice summer day and lots of quiet, come in at a close second!
J)January or February.. January, new year, fresh start and WINTER!!!
K)Kids…3
L)Life is incomplete without…LOVE, LAUGHTER, family and friends
M)Marriage Date…September 20, 1986
N)Number of Siblings…. 1 sister, she’s older
O)Orange or Apples… Apples… with Carmel yummy!!! Never baked however, ick…. Whose idea was it to bake fruit? That’s just wrong…
P)Phobias…Heights, though I love look out the window while in a plane. And this one is really weird… Not the fear of dying, I’m cool with that, but the fear no one would come to my funeral? I know stupid huh?
Q)Quote…”A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.” Oh and this is my new favorite one, too… “I’d like to check you for ticks…” Brad Paisley ***smiling to herself as she thinking about…***
R)Reasons to Smile… Hooking up with an old friend.**smiling like a giddy teenager..** Watching Baby K sleep…Knowing my girls are turning into some very interesting young adults… Little S is more insightful than she lets on…and this scares the hell out of me. She’s very smart.
S)Season…Winter!!! Fireplace, good book or a baileys and coffee (lots of whipped cream) and someone special to share it with.
T)Tag Three…Anthony you are off the hook, I wont do this to you..but I know your answers would be fun!!!….But I will hit up Jennifer, Barbara and anyone who wants to play!
U)Unknown fact about me…I am a horrible liar, I can’t lie, it’s just doesn’t happen, I stutter, choke and well, it’s not pretty, so suffice it to say.. what you get from me is the truth…My mom always knew when I would lie, besides why lie, your gonna get caught anyway.
V)Vegetarian or Oppressor of Animals… I could easily become a vegetarian, however, I like a good Filet Mignon once in a while.
W)Worst Habit…I procrastinate more than I should, and while I read, I twirl my hair.
X)X-rays or Ultrasound…Ultrasound, I suppose, neither if possible. I’ve had both neither are unpleasant.
Y)Your Favorite Foods…Chicken ceasar salad, Pizza, anything with tons of Cheese…(Italian or Mexican)
Z)Zodiac…Taurus, BABY yeah!!! May 10th!!!!

OK there ya go you guys, 26 more boring facts about me…

I'm finally up and running!!!!

2007-05-06T07:34:00.000-07:00

I love my laptop! I'm feeling a tad stupid, however, because it is just abit different from my desktop. But I'm working out the kinks. Little G sits and looks at it, like a puppy sitting at his master's feet at the dinner table waiting for scraps of food to drop...She is upset that mom is being so mean by not letting her "play" on the computer. OH well life's a bitch and... so is mommy!
The day I got it I brought it home and tried to get it all set up to be in the wireless mode. OH ok like that was going to happen! I spent about an hour reading the directions, plugging, unplugging cables, cursing, then I called my friend who's husband dabbles in this type of crap... he's couldn't walk me through it. So he came over to the house on Saturday and HOOKED ME UP!!! IT'S OFFICIAL FOLKS, I'M WIRELESS!!!!
Gothman, I thank you for your offer to 'hook me up" I will keep this information, should I need further assistance!!! Your awesome to offer to help me out 1/2 way around the world!!!

I'm sooooo Happy!!!!

2007-05-01T20:00:00.001-07:00

Hey you guys!!! I'm back and better than before! Yes, I did it I went 'BALLS TO THE WALL" so to speak! I got my laptop! I was sooo darn tired of fighting for the computer time that Last week I oredered a new laptop from Dell. I got it yesterday and I 'm having sooo much fun! I still haven't figured out the whole wireless thing and I will have to have my friend come and fix me up because that is way over my head. But I'm a happy camper!!!!! So I will be back to blogging form in no time!!!

Barbara, I owe you!!!!

2007-04-22T19:14:00.000-07:00

My friend Barbara tagged me to do this game. Only it was weeks ago and with another tag... it invovled food.... but I never got around to the challenge... The was challenged and since she didn't tag me or anyone else... I tagged myself... though ANTHONY your in the clear... I wont tag you...;-)but I bet you have quite the reading material, at your place!!!

4 books that I read as a child :

I hated reading as a kid, but I do remember...
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
Stone Soup
Amelia Bedelia
... sorry can't come up with a 4th

4 authors that I will read and re-read :

1. Janet Evanovich
2. Stephen King
3. Janet Chapman
4. Connie Mason

4 authors whose books I would not buy or borrow any more .

Sorry, I'm drawing a blank here.

4 books that I would take on a deserted island :
1. Janet Evanovich's HARD EIGHT...this is in the Stephanie Plum series, I believe this is the book where Stephanie and Ranger "get busy" for the first time... I love a man who wears all black and is overly confident.
2. Janet Chapman's CHARMING THE HIGHLANDER...OH MY GAWD this book is what got me hooked on the Higlander books! Stupid, I bought the book for the cover...log cabin in the woods and it was snowing..but OMG, they were getting busy in the first 2 chapters and continued all the way through....
3. Stephen Kings, THINNER... I couldn't put it down and when I was done, I re-read it.
4. Jane Blackwood's THE SEXIEST DEAD MAN ALIVE. while they didn't "get busy" in the first two chapters... they "got busy" just enough!!!

The first 4 books on my “ to read list “ :
ANYTHING REALLY!!! however, I have quite a stack I need to get through now.

The 4 last words of one of my favorite books :
"sport I could enjoy"

and since you have seen what I've been reading...you can pretty much guess what that sport is!!!!

I know it's been too long... and No, I didn't fall off the face of the earth I went on a road trip!

2007-04-15T09:28:00.000-07:00

Hello dear friends!
I trust all is well with my blogger familia!? The fam and I went on a little road trip this past week.! It was very nice... beach, beach, beach. Though I have come to find out (though I have always known) hubby doesn't listen to me... he'd ask me a question then dismiss me...ME? can you believe that.?? oh well, his loss I suppose! It was nice not being at home and having maid service and not having to worry about anything really.....We hit Aptos, Sausilito (sp?)Stinson Beach, Half Moon Bay and to the wine Country which in itself if fairly ironic since we had 1) little G and 2) neither of us drink wine...hummmmm. but all in all it was a fine time.. throwing you vacation photos... The toes, are mine, relaxing in the sand(no one thinks about taking my pix...I'm not too unfortunate looking, really.) so I have to take my own photo!!! :-) so what if its of my feet.! enjoy!!!

2007-04-07T17:07:00.000-07:00

You know I don't ususally like to post my kids pictures...but baby K was soo damn cute!!! she loved the Easter Bunny!!!!
Nonni just had to share!!! xxxooo to you all!!

2007-04-07T09:32:00.000-07:00

Easter Images from MSGRAFIXFX.com

Easter wishes to you all, my blogging family!

You guys are the best! I never want a day to go by without you knowing how much you all mean to me!

wow... am I really this unhappy???

2007-04-05T22:18:00.000-07:00

I just went back to a few entries that I never posted... they all started the same way...stop this ride I want off!!!

That's not the way to start an entry... so, I've been kind of quiet lately. Laying low, perhaps? I started this blog to 1) meet new friends..Anthony, Pendullum, Andrea, My Goth man.. and 2) help blow some steam. But as of late, it all seems so negative. I'm not a negative person, I do believe however, I have let myself get sucked into the "abyss of negativity " I need to step back, re evaluate and throw them all out!!! Let's just say. I'm here. I'm alive, but I really am not a happy camper. I have some serious decisions to make in the next few weeks. Talking seems to fall on deaf ears and blame is always pointed away .... oh alright....I'll admit it....
MY FAMILY IS ALL SCREWED UP AND IT'S ALL MY FAULT!! hee hee actually though that felt good!!!!! all is right with the world again!!! Now we can all go back to doing what we were doing before Mommy lost it!!!
Seriously though, this ostrich can't keep her head in the sand any longer.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can't change and the strength not to go "postal"on someones ass!

I bid you all sweet dreams! Nonni's pooped!!!

I F-ing did it?! for reals?

2007-04-02T17:11:00.000-07:00

Well dear blogging friends! It's been hell these last few weeks. and I lost it completely today! I had such a fabulous day at work. Fairly productive for a Monday, even, I got most of what I needed to get done, done. then it happened, I left work to come home.

Why the hell did I come home? I come home to the same thing every day. Little S sitting on her little A.. baby K wanting to be held, and little G trying to make some sense of all this. hubby is in the kitchen doing the dishes slamming crap around because he is pissed off that his off-spring are not lifting a finger to help out around the house. given, I understand that, but All he does is mutter unnecessary comments under his breath.. and well, dear friends, I have had about all I can take. Little S needs Gas money... I asked her why she didn't get some from S 4 B since she had to go to Sacramento to pick up Baby K this weekend... well, then she and I got into it... "forget it then I don't want anything from you, I'm obviously a burden to you " ... blah blah blah... well, for the 3 time since she's been with Shit for Brains...I said Fine Get the Hell out! She got up and went into her room to start packing her clothes.. oh FUCK what did I just do... but then I tried to talk to her and she started in with you and dad think I am a bad mom, and this and that...... so after figuring out I had just given her the out she has wanted,.. I threw my hands up in the air.."I give the fuck up!, I am tired of walking around on egg shells and trying to be the fricking peace keeper around here- I'm out of here" grabbed my books for school and left.... did I grab any clothes?NO did I grab my make up? NO. What a dip shit!..Anyway, I have no idea where I'm going after school tonite. but I am surely not going home. Thank God mom is a few minutes away!

I needed to vent. It seems to fall on deaf ears around my house and everyone is always ready to blame the other person... This mom just wants off this crazy frickin ride... I bid you a good nite and a better Tuesday! Boy is my mom going to be surprised when I show up tonite... someone want to call her!?

SHUCKS! I'VE BEEN TAGGED AGAIN!!!

2007-03-31T15:40:00.000-07:00

I've been tagged again folks! Thanks Mistress... 5 THINGS YOU'VE NEVER REVELED ON YOUR BLOG, THEN TAG 5 BLOGGING BUDDIES-(I don't have 5 blogging buddies) I thought I 've spilled all my guts, already.. you guys know everything about me! Don't you?

1)I'm not a fan of country music, however, I have bought 2 country CD's in the last week... Rascal Flatts! (practically the whole CD reminds me... oh you guys now know...) and Tim McGraw's Greatest hits. I'm scared, quick someone quick, grab me and bring back to the rock and roll side of life!

2)I don't like to speak before crowds, nor do I like crowds. I admire those who can "shoot from the hip" so to speak. My boss is one of those people, I love to watch him speak in public... he never falters, is confident,calm and gets his point across. His dad was the same way, as well.

3)I talk with my hands!!! OMG do I talk with my hands. While I was a Customer Service Rep (you know, I was on the phone all day, my hands would be flying all over the place. ie "a front loader is a truck that picks up the bin, by the forks in the front".. both hands demonstrating the forks of the truck picking up the bin. I do the same thing when I'm on the phone at home.. or on my cell, It seems to amuse those around me, I never noticed I did it, until they pointed it out. Heritage or habit? You decide!

4)I scored a 100% on my written (auto)driving test and 96 on my actual(auto)road test!!! I got my Driver's License 2 months after my 16th birthday and my first ticket 1 month later.... OOOPS! -It was speeding, of course!--

5)Life is too short and people don't appreciate each other enough!

FRIDAY OBSERVATIONS!!!

2007-03-30T17:01:00.000-07:00

So it's 6am and I'm singing my way to work- Going down the "5" -Rascal Flatts- dreaming about a nice big cup of coffee and hoping the drivers have A-left me some or B-started a new pot yeah, I know I'm a dreamer! But I suddenly find myself behind a delivery truck and next to a semi, they seem to be driving less than straight, hummmm, I haven't had my coffee, therefore there will be no accidents for me, so I pull around to pass both these clowns... Delivery truck guys seems to be semi-awake cool, and then I pass by the semi, I take a glance seriously shaking my head at this point This blond dread locked guy has his cab light on and is reading what appears to be a map or the newspaper!! Silently thanking God that mine, is the next exit! I was scared for all those commuters this morning. shuddering

then I made it to work!

I don't work in the nicest part of town, and we do get our share of strange and interesting souls that wonder in the yard. But today, I was left shaking my head. My office sits just off the shop, the rest of the offices are separated by the breezeway. So if there are any problems, my mechanics are with in yelling distance. Today, I'm trying to concentrate-which has been very difficult in itself lately- and this guy is yelling "HELLO,HELLO" to no one in particular, then he sticks his head in my window "Espanol?" Remember dear readers... Blond hair, blue eyes and fair skin? yeano..."Momento" (I can say that and a few more but that's es todos)So I grabbed one of my Mechanics and asked for his assistance. He took care of the guy, who was just trying to make a buck. But unfortunately we're "Corporate" so we wouldn't be able to use his services.

OH and how bout this... who are these stupid parents that give their (12 year old )kids cell phones?? Yes, I'm sure you know I am that Stupid parent. YOUR BILL IS READY TO BE VIEWED popped up in my e-mail...OMG!!!! MY BILL WAS 497.00 !!!!! smelling salts please!!!!! I didn't think I was going to recover from this, then I got mad!!! steam is coming out my ears again this week!!!
then I scrutinized the damn bill... Mine, the norm, hubby's, the norm, since he never has it, little S with 640 text messages and here's the killer... Little G with 1142 text messages, yes 1142!!!! $166.00 oh, hell no. She was not happy to see me when I walked in the door...looks like her savings account will be a little light for a while! Then she tried to give me any excuse she could as to why there where so many... Didn't matter it was your responsibility and your blew it pal! Now, you have some choices here, pal,and you wont like any of them... I can be mean when I need to be... I'm showing my teeth right now!!!GGGGRRRRR well there go my paycheck!

well, once again! it looks like it's going to be a stellar weekend so I guess it's time to get started!!! Hockey game tonite, mom and mass tomorrow and hopefully Sunday, the weather will hold and I can do some touch up painting on the house. I'm tired of looking at it!

I bid you all a great weekend and I'll be stopping by from time to time!!!

2007-03-29T16:16:00.000-07:00

Thirteen Things that amused Ann this week!

Mistress, I'm following your lead & I'm late getting this going... go figure!

1…. I find it amusing that I started Classes on Monday, and the familia is all out of shape. When asked "Don't you want mom to better herself for work?" Little G replies.."NO,! I want you to stay home, I hate school." The amusing part here is that Little G was on her myspace when I left for school ... and when I came home from school... hum... looks like she really suffered without my presence

2. I find it amusing that the only dictionary in my house and at my computer is the Italian/American Dictionary... If I can't spell it in English how can I spell it in Italian?

3. I find it amusing that I can have a really good time with friends and no alcohol will be involved!!!

4. I find it amusing that after walking 15 miles last week. I miss it on my off nites! (Mondays and Thursdays!) and if my sister can't go, and I go by myself, it seems to bother some people... why? They don't want to walk!? Itching my head at this one...

5. I find it amusing that Otto Von Hase (the rabbit) Likes chocolate chip cookies! Spoiled Rotten bunny!!!

6. I find it amusing that my granddaughters are usually more happy to see their NONNI than their own mothers! HAA HAA grinning to myself...

7. I find it amusing that I have actually finally admitted to being A MAKE-UP WHORE! I love make-up and especially love bonus week... slightly vain!

8. I find it amusing that, when I went back and read some of my older entries, I seem to have alot to say. I think I'm usually fairly quiet at home. Kimmy,Jen, Bre am I quiet at work?

9. I find it amusing that my mom totally acts one way around my sister and another way around me. Not quite sure why, though I suspect. Shakes head, doesn't mom know sister and I talk?

10. I find it amusing that this blog has become a very useful tool in my life! Self prescribed therapy, perhaps? It's an outlet and I usually feel better when I'm done. Not that my life sucks or anything. But there's always a challenge around that corner.

11. I find it amusing that while the familia knows about my blog, they could care less to see what's in it, but it bothers them the minute I sit at the computer. They don't even know the name of my blog.

12. I find it amusing that in the month of May I will turn 45 years old!!! They say it's better to laugh than to cry!

13. I find it amusing that I went to a SEXUAL HARASSMENT SEMINAR today and during the break the instructor was playing music I swear was from a Jenna Jameson movie... Don't ask me how I would know this fact ;-)

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Be careful What You Wish, It Just Might Come True!!!

2007-03-27T20:28:00.000-07:00

It finally happened dear friends! You know I have been looking for my Long Lost Friend, Rob, for some time now. Well, I am happy, If not ecstatic to let you all know I have found my hunky Italian motorcyclist!!! After several years, a few hundred dollars and a Internet services, not to mention one awesome brother, Thanks Chris! We have reconnected after 20 years! ok, its really 22, but I was trying to shave a couple of years off my age... I won't be going into too much detail,( I don't need to) as I'm still flying high! Just talking to him was as if there hadn't been this 22 year gap!~jumping up and down like a teenage girl~ OMG!!! But it has been, and yes there have been many life experiences that were too be had, through this short 22 year period. Which I suppose, is why fate, ok my tenacious, stubborn, self, brought us back to each other. I didn't try for all this time, to come back into his life to screw with his head or try to ruin his relationship. I just really, really missed him.... and when I want something bad enough... ;-) and I really wanted to find him.

I will share this with you.. I was rendered speechless (yes! me, believe it or not,)I had such a rush of emotions running through me, was stunned even, for a few seconds! It was just the best feeling That he even got back to me, let alone was happy to hear from me! He seems very happy with a new career choice and location. I'm happy, he's got a really good thing going.

We've not pryed ( I'm not even sure that's the word I want to use, but you know what I mean)into each others relationships as it's not about them, it's about us. This incredible person with such a forgiving heart. I love you, Rob!!!

And for your dear blogging buddies, I will no longer mention my quest for Rob! Well, maybe anyway :-) Sweet dreams to you all.. I know I will!!

My Saturday Rant!!! KIMMY THIS RANT IS FOR YOU!!!

2007-03-24T22:07:00.000-07:00

Tell me where is my office mate now that I need her! I have walked in to her old office 3 or 4 times to just throw something out... Like " I can't f-ing believe my daughter is a complete idiot" or "what the hell is she thinking?" or (and I am not a touchy feelie kind of gal) but even one of her hugs would make me feel better, as she knows the hell and heart ache I am feeling with actions of my child. CHILD , because she is just that!

I am so disappointed in my daughter, because I thought I had taught her better than to "settle" I never pushed her to go after the Rich guys or the jock guys or the Most handsome guys. Just a guy, was educated, well mannered and likable, who would treat her right, and not try to change her, not use her for sex, money, car, phone. But apparently she feels this is the right decision. Her older sister, and two of her best friends have told me.."trying to be supportive, don't want to piss her off, your not really going to let her marry this bozo are you? To her he is the "UBER GOD" to us and probably to you, he is the "UBER GOOBER"

Kimmy would tell me (the same thing I have told her regarding her eldest!)"you can only get them to a certain point before they start making decisions for themselves. You've taught them well. Any decisions they make now are on them." So why is it that when they start making their own decisions, they completely forget everything taught to them in their younger years! Her oldest is 25 and made some very bad choices...but these decisions didn't start happening until he was in his late teens...What is it about the late teens, that they feel they know everything? I know I was the same way, however, my decisions usually only involved me... Not a small child. And I did realize that I didn't know "shit" as did most of my contemporaries which we can admit now.

Kimmy moved away, her last post was March 13th.. I know your busy my friend, but where the hell are you!!!! I know, new job, new everything, and well I'm being patient however, I don't really have the same rapport with J-(my new office mate) than I have with Kimmy. Now don't get me wrong, I think J is the bomb! however, her baby is only 8! Lucky girl..If I could go back in time, would I have done things different? Kimmy would I have done things different? Her reply would be....somethings yes, somethings no. but you would have never let s for b live in your home for that short period of time... there was a reason his parents kicked him out.! Kimmy your right ... as always!! I have to play this bantering nonsense in my head as I know that's exactly what she would say. then ask me again. what the fuck were you thinking when you did that anyway? who knows Kimmy? She wouldn't stick my nose in it too often probably because she knew I regretted that from day one... Go ahead uber goober, sleep in your truck.!

So Kimmy, I ask a couple of things from you NOW!!! 1) did you find your USB cable? I need that picture of our hunky regional vp... (jeff gordon look a like) 2) I need to know how your job is going ?3) how are the kids? 4) school? 5) Dick and the baby? then some things for you... 1) I still haven't heard from "Robin S" - do you think the letter was ever received??? (one of the many things I will always ponder, I suppose.) 2) I can't email you from work because they always come back undeliverable.. (websense?) perhaps! definately "big Brother" 3) The air conditioner is already on in our office space....burrrrrr.. My heater is still going.. I'm so glad that's not my electric bill to pay!

I miss you like crazy, I can't sit in the fishbowl all day talking to bre and Jen(they're good sounding boards but really young!), the others will be upset. though who give a rats patootie anyway.... luv ya! :-)

Meeting of the minds!

2007-03-22T22:58:00.000-07:00

We met with Little S & S 4 b this afternoon. We told him our expectations and why we were less than enthused about their pending nuptials. We bought ourselves at the very minimum of 6 months. Well, it's a start. We told him that we wanted to see S continue school, she's been very focused up until now, he agreed. We want them to go through "couples counseling" especially after all the crap he has pulled and all the issues, mind games and bullshit, he agreed, "anything to prove to you I'm willing to do what it takes to make S happy" Whatever, This kid is good... I mean really good. He could make a Sinking man buy an anchor, hes' so good.

I did most of the talking . Hubby is dealing with the fact that his heart is breaking. (she asked him to walk her down the aisle, he said no he couldn't in good faith do this task.) This is not a good match, fit, situation. (hubby was 22 when he married for the first time... reliving a bit of history, yes, I suppose you could say that, and well... it's a life experience) I asked how his parents felt.. after a bit of himming and hawwwwing.. I believe they feel the same way as we do... they're not even 20 yet!!! Plus that S called his mom a "whore" a month ago, this is just not good.

This is not how I envisioned my daughter's life as an adult, starting out. I figured she finish school, then after she got herself established in her field, she find a wonderful person that would love her and her daughter. But NOOOOO . She so fricking stupid.. as we're talking this afternoon, she's rolling her eyes at some of the things I said.. OK rolling the eyes is not a sign of maturity little girl~~~~ sitting on my hands to keep from wringing her neck!~~~~ then they left. My take on the whole thing...They are too young, too immature, and too stupid about LIFE to be doing such a thing as getting married.

I do admire the fact he admitted he made poor choices...however, that's what I wanted to hear...and he knew it, like I said sinking man...anchor.

We told him though, seeing is believing. I'll keep you posted...

We're at the hump at least!

2007-03-21T22:45:00.000-07:00

It’s a semi nice day out there today. Why do I have to be locked up in this small square, I like to call my home away from home? I’m seriously procrastinating today! I have to work on this God-awful report, I don’t want to do it. But it will be something that will be a daily mandatory thing… I’m trying to figure it out the steps for this thing. Yes, I have instructions, but, these instructions were written by “corporate people”, so they are basically “clear as mud” WTF?

I’d rather be doing this (dream scene)… Going to Target, I love target and shopping so anytime I can help the economy..., buying an Ipod, download a mess of songs and go to the park and walk off all this frustration I am feeling. (back to real life) Why am I feeling frustrated? Go Grab yourself a cup of coffee, pull up a chair and lets talk! No, really, I know partly why I’m feeling this frustration as do you, dear readers. The other part is just plain Spring Fever, and I just don’t want to sit in my office today.

I want to go on a road trip and I want to be going by myself. Therefore the only person I would be responsible is…MYSELF…novel concept huh? Where would I go? Hummmm First, North, than East, or better yet, jump on a plane and go to Minnesota, Why Minnesota, you ask? Mall of America, over 400 stores? Hell yeah! I could shop my way out of this restlessness I’m feeling! HUMMM how about Atlantic City? I’ve always wanted to go! Coney Island perhaps? Oh yeah I’ve got it now!!! GREECE and sun myself with all of the beautiful people!!! Then I’d trip over to Italy to visit a Germaine de Capuccini salon and buy European Skin Care products and see is if somehow we’d be related. (could happen) I would have to go to Chicago and find myself a BEAR!!! I’ve got a couple in particular I’d like to find! I know it’s not BEAR season, but it is CUB season, almost.

Oh here’s an update. Little S just called to tell me she and S 4 B are getting married.. NEXT MONTH!!!!!!!!!!! WTF!!!! Trying to keep my composure, I’m not mad really, I’m really disappointed that she feels this is the only option for her. She’s not a loser, she’s very smart,(expect where s 4 b is involved) and very, very pretty. I asked her why so soon especially after everything that has happened between the two of them. She said that since she knows we hate him, and we wont help with the wedding that they’ll just go to the court house and do it.. Hum.. I then told her that she would then be losing her car, her phone and my mom will no longer be paying for daycare for baby K… “you’re going to take my car away?” yup! Then came my motherly advice on marriage. (going in one ear and out the other) “Marriage is hard enough, then throw into the mix.. money issues, the fact neither on of you have a car, phone, or JOB! You had a plan, you were focused and now…it just seems as though you want to piss it all away.” I told her that I would like to see her hold off until after she finishes school, which will be in about 6 months, go to counseling, (they might listen to a counselor)”you’ll pay for counseling, mom?” YUP! And then you’ll have my blessing. If you’re going to spend the rest of your lives together, then what’s 6 more months? A marriage made in hell to be sure!

and how was your day?

I just had to share!!!!

2007-03-20T20:18:00.000-07:00

This is what the moon looked like tonite! Just slightly peering through the trees... It's going to be a beautiful sunrise in the morning!!!!

just someting pretty to look at!..We tend to take things like this for granted.. so I thought I'd share!!!!

WARNING... THE FOLLOWING WILL OFFEND SOME... THOSE WHO ARE EASILY OFFENDED MAY CHOOSE TO SKIP THIS ENTRY!!!

2007-03-19T22:36:00.000-07:00

When did Little S become such a complete flipping idiot? For the last oh...what 1o months, she's been doing o.k. without S for B's (shit for brains)... she's been as civil as she can be to this kid. who has used her to the fullest...All we ever wanted was for them to get along for the sake of baby K...What happened this weekend is just more than I can bare...or bear. hearing nonni's heart breaking a little bit... the seeing the steam coming out of her ears because she's pissed off!..
S 4 B apparently had, as he called a BREAK THROUGH. and needed to see little S right then and there...at 4 in the morning..standard M.O. for s 4 B, how ever, I was not awake, didn't know, didn't hear, until, I heard little S's car start at 7 in the morning...Where the hell is she going? "I'm taking s 4 b (no, she doesn't know this term) home." Why? and Why was he here?...hearing the phone being handed over to someone else...oh hell no, I don't want to talk to him...Hello, Ann? I just want to apologize for everything that's happened. stunned, my reply, and they don't get anybetter than this, for me at 7am..."o.k." So, dear friends, you know where this shit is going ....Yup, there back together...shaking my head and thinking about the hundreds of dollars spent on a really good lawyer...I'll just add this to the long list of money ill spent on s 4 b's...Really the money has nothing to do with it much..only he comes to this relationship with...NADA! I've tried talking to S but it only seems to fall on deaf ears..after all what do I know about ASS HOLE ex-BOYFRIENDS...???? well, how about they're an EX for a reason! silently giving a high five to any one strong enough to walk away from a crappy relationship...when you know your heart is telling you something completely different from your head! I just shudder to think she has just signed up for the long haul on a completely fucked up relationship! I know, I know ... after my last couple of entries....I know..I've set the bar.. He's a taker.. and she deserves to be treated like a queen, She will be the one making the money, she'll be doing it all...but... live and learn.. I'm trying really hard no to pry, push or generally do anything that will push them further together... I wonder what his parents think, especially after little S called his mom a "fucking whore?"..hum... Oh I can see the holiday dinners now... LORD HAVE MERCY!!!! She's not coming clean with too much information.. but I know at this point I've pretty much lost her...Unfortunately she'll be learning the hard way!!! I can't say, I didn't warn her... and I just can't believe what an idiot she is being...

THIS BLOG WAS INTERRUPTED BY THE WEEKEND.

2007-03-18T21:31:00.000-07:00

It was soooo nice this weekend, I had to take the weekend off from blogging! I know, it should be the first thing I do in the morning and the last thing I do before I go to bed...trust me, I think of my blogging friends endlessly! So with that said...I will be back in rare (or boring) form Tomorrow...I just wanted you guys to know I didn't fall off the face of the earth , and I miss you bunches!
HUG AND KISSES TO MY FRIENDS!!!

My thoughts for a Thursday....

2007-03-15T21:02:00.000-07:00

I love it when I can come home and the t.v. is OFF, and all the adults, or children, for that matter are off doing their own thing leaving NONI (me)and Baby K to play! Well, as much as a 10 month old and a 44 year old can play. We've spent the last hour playing "isty bitsy spider" * which she is clearly getting the grasp of* and she can't tell me "Noni, you can't sing so good"(cuz Noni couldn't carry a tune...in a bucket) and then we just sat in "baby central" =Baby central used to be our dining room before the remodel=I had the video camera on her for about 40 minutes, she went from toy to drawer to toy to riding toy to bouncing toy to drawer -where she continues to pull out , oh lets see everything, yet again.- to toy vacuum cleaner to little drum set, just having a blast. She was (baby) talking to herself the whole time! Then she found it... the bead necklace she got at chuck E. Cheese. that what hilarious! Tried and tried as might, she just couldn't get that thing over her head and around her neck, a good thing I'm sure... but the Stubborn Italian Blood in her, wouldn't let her give up! Atta girl.. K!!! this will be the last little bit of time I get to spend with her before she goes to "S 4 B's " tomorrow. We have a lot of fun!

Do you ever wonder how life would be if there we're no phones? It's now 9:16pm... and the phone just rang, not the kids' cell phones but the house phone...excuse me, but didn't we have a no calls after 9 pm rule? I guess I missed the memo, recanting that rule!

Kimmy. I think my computer is going to take a powder again.!!! It's acting really funky... gee could it be someone's myspace mucking up my processor? I'm thinking LAP TOP, locked in my room with no access available by a 13 year old!!! your opinion please?

Apparently, my office is the "red headed" step-child of the company. My boss shot me an Email the other day asking about a corporate wide procedure, you know the email... "are you on board with this?" Unfortunately, my only response was... "on board with what?" Apparently I didn't get the memo about this new procedure. Too many people at the top, directing the show. I'm on board now!!! HEll, I'm so on board, the equipment isn't even at my location yet and I've got all the data, ready to roll! My boss loves me ... I hope! worried brow is forming!

I am so not a country music person, by any means, but I just bought the Rascal Flatts CD.. OMG!!!! Really, Really, Good! Track 3 is about what would happen if you played a country song backwards.. you get your dog back, you get your best friend jack, back. it's really a catchy little ditty, you have to hear it to appreciate... I bought it for track 2, in case anyone cared! it reminds me of someone.

DUKE lost! Sorry Coach K. you can't win every year, apparently this was the first UPSET of the day... Normally, I've taken the Portable tv to work with me to listen to the games.. but since Pacific' s not in it this year, the tv will continue to collect dust in the corner until Pacific's back in the saddle-or on the court. Next year will work for me!

Fundraisers, Fundraisers, Fundraisers! It seems as soon as one is over another one starts! little G is working on a "school wide " fundraiser, and next fund raiser will be for her Washington DC trip next October! I don't even get a break, between My Children and Grandchildren, as soon as little G is out of the fundraiser age... Little Little G (the other granddaughter almost 2) will just be about starting school..it's a vicious cycle, but Noni loves her kids... so, what the hell, it's only money and I can't take it with me.

did you hear about the Pizza Parlor in NY that makes a $1,000.00 pizza? Good Lord. I heard about it on Bob and Tom this morning! Comments about it can not be repeated, Then I heard about it on another Radio Station... cavier, lobster tail, Yuck!!! on Pizza. That's just wrong! Any time your out in my area...,I've got a Pizza place for you! Too die for and considerably less than $125.00 a slice! But with a 125.00 we could have one helluva time!

And speaking of one helluva a good time....na... you'll just have to wait until next time....

Hey, if your in a variable rate mortgage, it' best to jump ship on that loan now.!!!! Rate are rising everyday and people are losing their homes... because some moron at the mortgage broker's office told them they could afford 2500.00 a month on a house payment... hum,,, that at the 1% interest for the first 2 years... what does one do when that 1% jumps to 8 or 9%? shuddering just thinking about it, yet relieved, it's not me. we just refi'd but the payment is no where near 2500.00/month...

my computer is just pissing me off now, so rather than continue to be annoyed, I will bid you all, my friends, a restful night and rocking friday!!!! Scads of emotions to all of you!

I love a good Walk!!!

2007-03-14T20:45:00.000-07:00

I gave up 10 pounds for lent(someone else can have those 10 ten pounds, I'm tired of them!)... I've got 6 more to go! I walked 3 miles today! I walked with my sister, who walks slightly slower than a run. My right calf is tightening up and I'm sure I will wake up with a charlie horse in the wee hours of the morn. I feel the burn and it's feels great!!!

This is a much happier post that my last one!!

IMPORTANT QUESTIONS... BUT ARE YOU WILLING TO LISTEN?

2007-03-13T22:00:00.000-07:00

1) WHEN DOES ONE DRAW THE LINE; QUIT DRINKING OR GET THE HELL OUT?
2) WHY DO YOU ALWAYS FEEL TO NEED TO DRINK? DO WE MAKE YOU THAT UN HAPPY? GET THE HELL OUT THEN.
3) DO YOU REALIZE YOUR KIDS THINK OF YOU...LIKE YOU THINK OF YOUR FATHER?
4)YOU MAY HAVE STOPPED SMOKING BUT THAT SHOULDN'T BE AN EXCUSE TO DRINK LIKE A FISH.?
5)WHY CAN'T YOU SEE WHAT A JERK YOU ARE?
6)WHY CAN'T YOU SEE YOU ARE YOUR FATHER?
7)DO YOU REALIZE, IF I HAD THE FORESIGHT TO KNOW THEN, WHAT I KNOW NOW, YOU'D BE A MEMORY?
8)DON'T YOU REALIZE YOU'RE KILLING YOURSELF?
9)MY PARENTS DIDN'T DRINK AND YOURS WERE ALCOHOLICS WHAT WILL OUR CHILDREN TURN OUT TO BE?
10)CAN YOU TELL I'M VERY UNHAPPY?

I finally did it!!!! I totally amaze myself sometime!!!

2007-03-09T19:29:00.000-08:00

Yes, I am technology challenged, but I am tenacious soul to say the least. And it is this stuborn streak that has finally allowed me to download stupid music to my stupid mp3 player!!!! yippee fricking skippee!!!

Yes, I have downloaded music that could only be found on my cassette tapes (no, I didn't say 8 track) that are sitting somewhere in my house. The list is comprised of ... My Moody Blues, Peter, Paul, and Mary,(not that I am THAT old) Kenny Loggins, Lonestar, Elton John, Genesis, and a wide aray of artists that they just happened at a good time in my life, Songs that remind me of Rob, Songs that remind me of when I met my husband. stirring memories of even the stupid things of years ago...No, Donny Osmond, Bobby Sherman, David Cassidy, have not made the list...just yet, anyway. That's for a whole other mood!

But I am excited and glad I am not a complete idiot! If there is a book MP3 Players for Dummies... Well, you know the author had me in mind at the time! Now it's time to move up in the world a get an MP3 Player that has a humongus amount of memory...Oh I'm sure the technical term would include bytes either mega or giga...(i know one is more than the other as for spelling...whatever!!!) Not bad for this "cool Nonni"